Hold On

2000

All the kids are off to school. I worked at the local hospitals, I've spent the past 6 years practising and gaining qualifications to become a nurse. It was tiring but it was all worth it, i'm doing what I love, around people who I love. If I look back 10 years ago, I could never imagine my life like this. Now I can say I believe in the phrase anything is possible. All praise to the most high, I could've never done this by myself. My independent life took an escalating turn, I tried to show my children the best way of living. I had to show them how to deal with situations, especially when it involves them being outcasted for being who they are. They need to learn to grow with confidence and strength and not let little things get under their skin. They need to live with awareness and not be blinded by things in the world. I can't let them repeat my mistakes. Because it was those small mistakes that everyone ignored, it was all the small changes that built up. The small changes that were just supposed to be 'slight amendments' but we were too blind and began to live an illusion when they said 'everything will be alright'. I can't let mistakes be repeated. Despite the traumatic experiences, it was beneficial as it helped me be who am I, today, it helped me grow thick skin and get through these days. I thank God everyday for me putting where I am. I'm safe now, and I have everything I could ask for. I had my children. I had my family and now I had Kamal. It was a long, agonising 6 years but he came in the end. The children didn't recognise him, he was a stranger to them. Only Waleed was familiar of having father but the idea was still bizarre to him. Zara was completely terrified of him. I couldn't blame her, he was gone all her life. But nothing could be better than what it is now.