Autism, From Someone Who Is On The Spectrum

Autistic and Friendships (January 2020)

"The reason why Autistic people may come off as "needy" or "clingy" it is because we are used to being left out. We are used to being left out. We are used to being ghosted by friends and crushes. We are used to being push aside. We know what it is like to not know how the other person feels about us. To be in a perpetual state of uncertainty about where other person is standing. So we make sure you know what we think about you, so you do not feel that way. So, if you like us, if you love us, if you find us funny and smart and wonderful, please voice it more often. Most of us will highly appreciate the gesture."-The Autistic Life

I always felt bad for being "needy" and "clingy" for most my life when it came to friendships. Turn out this quote, make sense why I am way I am. I have loss friendships because people did not understand why I was "clingy". It make sense that I have been left out of parties, sleepovers, and more. So I never want anyone questioning how I feel about them because I know what it is like to be left out.

Seeing this quote early today made me realize that in the last year, I do feel so "needy" or "clingy" because I finally have people, who do not leave me out. Something I am not used in many ways because I am used to being left out or not sure where I stand with people. Some days I am reminded that I am not being "needy" or "clingy" when I need reinsurance of where I actually stand with someone whether it a relationship or friendship. It is what comes with spending many years being left out and not know where I actual stood with people.

So thank you guys for giving me a place to be me in unique way. It is always easy to find the words to make sense of what is going on in my head and what that make me feel. But in the last year, I have learn that more people will understand than you think you just have to let them. And some people will surprise and want to learn, too. ❤️