Over the last 2 years, I have been unpacking some emotions that have dealing with over years. Most of my life, I have struggled with not feeling enough. I think that is common feeling as female.
But a piece of my puzzle pieces is that most of my life, I do not feel enough of autistic. It took 3 diagnosis to sort of agree on autism because it overlap with other conditions. One of those conditions runs in my family, so it was easy to think that was I was dealing with. It was until my college years, I learned that my issues had always been autism. After doing some research about Autism, that was what actually I dealing with and sensory issues run in both sides of my family.
I think that, the fact that for most of my life my challenges with my autism was down played because to outside world see someone, who can handle world for most part. That is tough part there is no off switch to Autism.
To many people may never understand what I mean by not feeling autistic enough. But like a person, who has some thing different with them but is been told from beginning that they aren't blank because they do not have typical traits. You just setting the person to feel like they are not enough in blank.
Just because you do not experience what you expect does not mean that a conditions, traits, and experiences do not effect someone, who has them. It might make that person feel valued in their views of the world and themselves.
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Autism, From Someone Who Is On The Spectrum
Non-FictionAutism from the perspective of a woman on the spectrum
