WITHERING ROSES

Breaking Stereotypes

Ohkay so that happened. I......liked her... I mean she was better than any of the friends I had but I really did not expect this. 'No girl would love you' is what everyone told me...its what I told myself. Now she just said it. I wanted to say yes but some voice in my head said that she was probably joking but my heart said something else. Her reason was valid enough and her pained smile when I didn't understand the first time......maybe she really meant it. She was still waiting for my answer

"uh –um yes............ I guess."
"*pained expression* you guess?" she looked like she was about to cry.
"I mean...............*sighs*I'm completely new to this concept of love and all, even if I do say yes and love you... will this last? And-and youre my first girl_friend and if I do become your boyfriend then my first girlfriend......look I've been telling myself-well not just me everyone tells me that no girl would fall for me. Why? Because I'm a dork, because I'm immature, clumsy, stupid and what else. They say I'm naughty and I don't even know what discipline is. They say no girl would even talk to me, its because they hate me I don't know why they just hate me. According to me its because I-I-I don't even have one true friend to tell me whats right, to encourage me or to actually like me for who I am. The ones I had betrayed me or, or they changed,one way or the other. Well I'm naughty, clumsy, crazy and all yeah but I-I I cant help it that's me. And I don't think I can trust a-"

          She cut me off mid sentence with an unexpected hug, her face to my chest. I could feel her tears. I didn't understand why she felt emotional and how I said all that, it came straight from my heart.

" I-I understand Kalyan...and I don't know if you  get this a lot but after you said all that I just wanna be there for you......you've been hurt a lot and I get that, that's why you can trust me.........please..." she said and looked at me.

Her eyes were like...idk like that of a puppy looking pleadingly to its owner for food. They looked desperate. She was still hugging me. I always liked hugs and kisses. My mom gave it to me everyday(don't get creative...kisses to cheeks) and I wanted to tell her no, but I couldn't because deep down I finally felt needed.
               Soooo yeah, I was in a Mini Cooper with a girl who just told me that she wanted to be my girlfriend and I was not sure what to do. The voices in my head went quiet. So I hugged her back and said
"fine. I'll be your boyfriend..."
"you didn't have to hug me back for that*hugs tighter*"
"I like hugs".