WITHERING ROSES

I'll always love you...

So. How's life been so far?" Ankita asked.
"huh-well...um.........it's been ok. It never really gets past ok generally."
"and why's that?"
"forget it."
"why?"
"because it's better now. More than ok!"
"and why's that*innocent look*"
"one: my life was ok because ok is better than shitty!                                                               Two: it was ok because......"
"because...?"
"......because you weren't there......"
"Kalyan...I-I. I'm really sorr-"
"no-no it's ok, I've already forgiven you. Please don't start crying! Let's laugh, let's laugh it's better!!"
"yeah......ok."
"so, how's life been for you?"
"it's been devastating. And blank. I hope it changes."
"wow. You've had that answer already prepared huh!"
"*whispers something with eyes welling up with tears*"
"huh? What was that? Hey-whaa-come onn don't keep crying you're really crying a lot!"
"*cries quietly*"(am I a joke to you?)
"come on! You said something...Ankita trust me. Please, whatever it is, just say it. If you want to talk about anything. Anything! I'm here to be by your side!"
"I hate myself Kalyan*sobbing*"
                       When she said trhat, I regretted asking her what she said, because I didn't know what to say, I didn't know why exactly she'd hate herself. Was it because of something she did?
"why?" I asked.
"because I'm a mess. My life is a mess. I'm fat and I've been teased and degraded so much for that!" she said as she cried.
"you hate yourself because you've been teased!?"
"partly.................."
"look Ankita...... there will be people out there. There always will be people out there who tell you that you can't do this, you can't do that, you're nothing, you'll never succeed. But deep down, in your heart, you know who you are. Who you really are. To me you're this sweet, cute girl... who always looks beautiful. Those people, they're called haters, because that's what they do best. They hate. But they are in your life for a reason . they demotivate you, they degrade you. But it's up to you how you take it. You take it as demotivation, it's demotivation, you take it to be degrading, it's degrading. But, If you take it as motivation, it is motivation. You wanna prove them wrong, then do it , make it happen, they tell you that you can't do it then do it once, twice, thrice or even a hundred times. Your success will silence them. Or if you think it's actually impossible to do it, whatever it is then ignore them. Yeah just ignore them. There will be some special people who won't hate you. Who will always believe in you and tell you that you can do it even if they know you can't. focus on them, on what the good people say. It's enough if you have one good impression from one good person. The rest of the hundred haters don't matter. You're not fat, you're cute and cuddly, it all depends on how you see it Ankita. Just know I'll always be with you in your hard times, I will always support you. I will spill lies only to make you happy and I......I'll always love you."