WITHERING ROSES

She was on the verge of tears. Immediately I reminded myself of who I was and what I had become. Ankita made me better, I didn't wanna show her that deep down there was still a monster that was sleeping, not dead. I left his collar as he collapsed to the ground groaning softly

"Ankita. I loved you Ankita, I loved you so much I felt you were better than my mother and *tears*......and-I-all this is just hard to digest, its like my whole world is destroyed. I felt happy with you...and I felt you loved me......... look if this is what you want, if this makes you happy...then its ok,I'm not gonna force you, its just that...... after you did this I couldn't take it. I still cant-you of all people should know that. But if I really love you...... I guess I should respect your choices."

All that, I said without thinking about what I was doing. Her expression of fear changed to something like guilt. I bent towards sailesh.

" hey......uh-look(he didn't look like he could look at anything other than his hurting dick and dizzily at the sky) I'm-I'm sorry okay. I did warn you, I could have done worse things if-if you weren't with Ankita...if-if she wasn't here.y-y-you should be thankful to her alright! Look man.. she means a lot to me-she-she means the world to me, youre lucky and......... I don't know if I'll be able to live with the pain but... I'll try. You take care of her ok?" I said and stood straight taking a large deep breath.
"both of you......I'm sorry." I said and turned...I didn't want to see her
I walked away slowly, I felt pretty bad and devastated. I needed some time to digest everything if all this was really happening, if all this was not a nightmare that seemed so real. I needed something to stop me from feeling so messed up and shitty inside. I couldn't go home crying so soon.

I went back to the park and sat on a bench at a corner of the park. I felt myself slipping into a vertigo of thoughts. What did I do wrong? Why did I let her go? What was wrong with me? Did she ever really love me? What happened between us, me and Ankita, our relationship was beautiful . it was something I never felt before, perhaps the peak of my happiness. It always felt beautiful and happy and-and suddenly...... all of a sudden like a ticking time bomb that was activated the moment we met everything got destroyed in an instant. Nothing made sense. I was scared for reasons I didn't know, I was afraid, I didn't know what to do. I just sat there thinking about it lost in thought when I saw a bed of Roses at An isolated corner, it wasn't getting enough water it looked pretty withered It's weak steam bent at a depressing angle the faded red colour looked desolate but somehow it was still alive it was still holding on to the ground it was still surviving I felt myself relating to that rose, that beautiful rose with a sharp stem, hard to pluck but beautiful in the end. There was a broken bucket nearby I filled it with some water from the tap in the park and poured water on it, it was enough. The rose had a Chance now.