WITHERING ROSES

Love me again...

UNKNOWN
I ran from the tea shop as fast as I could to the park, ignoring what I ordered and Catherine who was shouting behind me......mouthful(I can be rude sometimes). I ran so fast like my life depended on it. I slowed down as I approached the rear entrance. This is it, I thought. It had to be her, it was her mini cooper that I saw I remembered the number plate. I was sure of it. She had to be there.

I went closer to the tree. Quietly, hoping not to startle her. I moved to the right of the trunk trying to peek at the bench and that's when I saw a bag on the side of the bench.
Sometimes life seems really down and worse and bad but then, there are some things that make life meaningful. You feel like they were made for you to feel better, happy moments... and sometimes you're right, things happen for a reason.

I was sweating a little. I was right next to the trunk. I slowly came forward to stand at the side of the bench and............... she was there.

As soon as I saw her, I froze. She was eating a bar of chocolate as she was looking up at the sky. She did a double take when she saw me. Her eyes went wide. She'd changed......a lot(physically). She looked a little fatter than the last time we met and slightly more chubbier. Same glasses, uncombed hair, perfect eyebrows. She looked cuter than before now... she froze too, eyes wide, chocolate bar in mouth, hand on the chocolate bar. We were like that for almost a minute until I decided to speak.

"uhhh......umm...hi?"
"*eyes wide, chocolate mouth, medusa victim*"
"we.........um we were in... a relationshiiip...... a year ago......... I think..."
"*same position*"
"aaand uh...... we broke up......"
"*same position*"
"and I wanted to say--"

What-what was she doing? She kept pinching her arm that was holding the chocolate bar(why can't she just keep the bar down!?)

"uh-no... don't, I'm real..."
"*stops pinching*"
"though I'm the one that needs a reality test*most awkward laugh*"

Suddenly she got up to leave and started walking to the exit, I didn't know what to do, she left her bag on the bench.

"hey! Hey wait-"
"*walks stiffly, chocolate still in mouth*"(what is it with the goddamn chocolate!?)
"aren't you at least gonna talk to me?"
"*keeps walking*"
"please Ankita!" I didn't move from the bench, she had to come back for her bag anyway...
"*doesn't care what I say and keeps walking*"
"I thought you were different!!"
"*stops*"
"I thought that you'd actually show your love, unlike others...... and you did. Until you left..."
"*turns around with tears*"(she left the bag but not the chocolate!)
"I don't care whether you left me then, I was hurt, I still loved you. Now you're gonna leave me again?*voice breaks*"
"leave me Kalyan, move on*cries*...... I'm nothing..."

This was it, I had to convince her, she was crying, she cried only when she was hurt mentally(or physically), she was vulnerable, she'd have to hear me out now...

"well I did, I left you, yeah. I DID. I could've got you back but my bloody brain didn't work then. And I tried to forget you. And move on. But you never left completely! You came into my life when I had no one... you-you perfected me. Made me who I am today...... you left a mark, a fucking permanent mark... and you tell me that you're nothing, when this shit*pointing to myself* could've not lost you. I wanted to see you alright! I longed for you, just hoping I'd see you again. I came here every fucking day, every evening......hoping you'd be here. Why? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU DAMN IT. I STILL LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE *she starts sobbing*. A person that has proved to be more important than my own mother is not nothing. I'm the retard here. My mom hates me, my dad cares only if I do something great like get a medal and always FUCKING WIN AND WIN AND WIN. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME LIKE YOU DID. NO ONE LOVES ME LIKE YOU DID!!.............. people left me. But you weren't like other people, you are so much better than them, you were so much better than them. And you left me too...... I suffered for a year. I was hurt. I just don't wanna be hurt...again..."
"*sobbing*Kalyan I-*more sobbing*"(chocolate?)
"*waits patiently(I rarely do that)*"
"but I left you*sobssobssobs*"
"you taught me not to give up on my dreams. You're part of it. And I don't care if you left me for another guy. Just be a part of my life as my girlfriend again. I still love you Ankita..."