WITHERING ROSES

Fuck einstein, Fuck edison

          I went home, ate dinner and was about to go to sleep when I got a call. It was Catherine. What now?

"hello. Kalyan? Are you free??"
"obviously"
"*laughs* anyway I was doing some thinking since there was no other job for me- I mean, I was bored!"
"obviously"
"*laughs* you have a good sense of humour!!"
"don't get that a lot*laughs* thanks!"
"yeah......"
"............ you called me to tell me I have a good sense of humour?"
"oh my gosh noo*laughs* sorry. As I was saying, I was doing some thinking and I thought of what you said about Ankita and her relation with the park."
"hmmmmmmm" suddenly I didn't like talking about Ankita through the phone.
"you did say she felt... FREE?"
"uhhuh... yeah why? 'I love this park its where I feel free and strong, its perfect.' That's what she said."
"wow! You remember!"
"you were saying !!!???" I said restlessly.
"oh-sorry. So she felt free and strong yeah? It means no matter what happened or happens she'd always go to that place!!"
"*sigh* Catherine you can't say-"
"it's not what I'm saying dummy! She liked a supermarket back in new york!! Can you believe that!? She went there everyday and basically bought nothing! When I asked her why, she said she went there because she felt free and strong, she said any place where she felt free and strong will always be close to her heart, she said she'd go there no matter what happens!!!!"
"ohhhkaaayyy. So...... you're telling me, that she is supposed to be visiting the park everyday?"
"something like that. Maybe she wouldn't go for a day-"
"but Catherine I've waited for a year!! You think I'm going there and doing what? Bird watching!? I'm looking and waiting for her dammit. And-"
"WAIT- SHUT UP! LEMME FINISH!"
"ok."
"maybe she wouldn't go for a day or two but there is no way she'd not visit the park for more than two days!!!!"
"I TOLD YOU SHE'S NOT COMING!!!!!"
"that's impossible!!!!!"
"it is possible if SHE THINKS SHE DOESN'T WANT TO COME. IF SHE THINKS, OH THERES THIS SELF LOATHING LOSER THAT I DUMPED A YEAR AGO COMING TO THISS PARK!!!"
"THEN WHY DO YOU GO!!!???"
"BECAUSE OF THE FUCKING HAPPY MEMORIES, BECAUSE I LIKE IT TOO, BECAUSE I FEEL FREE TOO!!!!!!"
"........."
"........."
"I'm-I'm sorry........."
"Catherine I.........*sigh* look, like I said already, she's my world. She still is, I don't care which bitch brainwashed her, I don't care if she left me, I love her that explains everything, I love her because the way I felt when I was with her... I never felt that way to anyone. I could be me as in no fake smiles, no fake laughs.. everything, every single thing, was real. Only because I was with her. I doubt I'll find another person like her. Nothing. Can replace her. She's my better half whether she's there or not and I-I just miss her—like... a LOT. I can't explain the pain she's left me in. And even though she hurt me, I still want her back, I still wanna see her, and if this is what love does to a person then I FUCKING ACCEPT IT. LET HER HURT ME MORE!!"
".............................."
"all I have in the park are good memories. Great memories or-or perhaps the best in my life. Even the break up took place outside the park. I-I don't know why but whenever I go to the park, whenever I sit where we sat... I feel like she's still there,*voice breaks* hugging me, telling me she loved me when we read a book or drew something! And for once, just once in my life I wanna see her again and set things right. I wanna feel her touch again, I wanna hold her tight and never let go.*tears fall* I just want her back. That park was paradise for me as long as she was there, she was paradise, after she left it's just a peaceful park where I can sit and reminiscence the happiest times of my life. that park was like our little world...... now the world feels lonely even though I'm surrounded by people..............."
"......Kalyan I-I don't know what to say..."
"..............."
"I knew you were in pain but this much........."
"..............."
"Kalyan I'm-I'm sorry. I really am...... I wish I could hug you and say everything's alright but we're speaking through the phone so........."
"it's ok......"
"sorry......"
"it's ok Catherine come on. Who else am I gonna tell all my feelings to if Ankita is not there. Thanks for being there... really!"
"anytime Kalyan, I'm always here."
"cool. Let's meet tomorrow!!"
"ok! Bye!!"
"byeeee......" I was about to cut the call.

"KALYAN WAIT WAIT WAIT!!!!!" she shouted.
"huh? Yeah? You ok?"
"when-when do you go to the park!?"
"I just told you! Every single day!!!"
"NO!! WHAT TIME!!???"
"uh...4pm or 4:15pm...... 5pm latest. Why?"
"EVERYDAY?????"
"yeah why?"
"OMG KALYAAAAN!!!!!!"
"uh...... what....?"
"WHAT IF SHE'S NOT COMING TO THE PARK, NOT IN-"
"that's what I told you I-"
"WAIT!! SHUT UP GODDAMMITT LET ME FINISH--"
"LAST TIME YOU SAID THAT YOU--"
"I DON'T FUCKING CARE NOW SHUT UP AND LISTEN!"(she'd make a nice teacher)
"ok."
"*whispers*what if she's not coming to the park when she generally comes!!??"
"why are you whispering?"
"doesn't matter. What if she changes the timing of her visits coming to the park knowing that you'd come? Because as I said. HER NOT COMING TO THE PARK IS IMPOSSIBLE!!!*SHOUTS*"
"Catherine...*voice shakes*"
"yeah?"
"I wish I knew you before all this happened!!"
"*laughs* you already-"
"OH MY GOD OH MY FUCKING GOD OH MY GOD IT COULD BE TRUE!!!!!!"
"yeah*laughs*"
"WOW CATHERINE YOU'RE A GENIUS, YOU'RE MY HERO, YOU'RE CLEVER FUCK EINSTEIN FUCK EDISON YOU'RE WOW... I JUST... WOOOOOWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!"
"OKOKOKOKOK*laughs*"
"CATHERINE YOU'RE AMAZING, YOU'RE SPECTACULAR, YOU'RE CRAAZY, YOU'RE-OMG I LOVE YOU!!!
"*laughs* thank you, thank you, thank- wait what!?"
"ER- I LOVE YOU... AS A FRIEND, AS A SISTER!!!!!"
"ohkay*laughs* you're crazy*laughs*"
"I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW"
"uh ok*laughs*Kalyan calm d-"
"TOMORROW! MEET ME AT THE PARK AT 4:15 AM PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE X 1000"
"oh my god-ok*laughs*"
"YYYAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY BYEEEEE!!!"
"bye an-" I cut the call.