August P.O.V.
I sat in our room with the door close just thinking. It came to me that its way bigger than us,
I need to man up and stop acting like a little boy. Im going to man up so I can handle my responsibilities.
My son & daughter need me I can't keep living like this. I promise my mama I would make her proud that's what I'm going to do.
The first thing is I want to tell Nicki I'm sorry for lying to her while she was in the coma. I'm sorry for fucking that hoe.
I'm sorry for not being there for her like I should have. I'm just sorry.. So many emotions were going on I'm just at my braking point.
I got up then reached for my phone I had to text Nicki to let her know how I feel.
* Text Convo.*
Me: Hey Nicki we need to talk.
Nicki: okay August can we talk tomorrow ? I'm not in the mood.
Me: Sure,I love you.
Nicki: I love you to.
*end of text convo*
My heart went to my stomach, what could she doing that's more important than talking to me ?
I'm going to give her the space she needs.
August then went to clean up the house. He had boxes everywhere dishes all over the counter.
Paper covered half the living room. He went from top to bottom cleaning.
Even did the laundry. August stayed up half the night just thinking about him & Nicki weather they should be together or go there own ways.
X8:30 Am.
He walked into the bathroom to look at himself. His eyes are blood shot red he looks tired also sick. He was stressing, Then his phone started to ring. He quickly turned off the water and went into his room. To see that Nicki called.
"Hello"
"Good Morning"
"Whatsup"
"Can I come over now so we can talk."
"Yes the door will be open."
"Okay bye"
They hung up at the same time.. I went back to finish my hygiene. I decided to put on my white Joggers with a red Levi shirt with my all black Tims. I picked out my hair then added some water to it so my hair was curly.
"August ! I'm here."
I went downstairs to see Nicki standing there looking very stressed her eyes were red. I felt bad that I'm putting all this stress on her.
I reached my arms out for a hug I pulled her closer to me.
"How are you"?
I kissed her forehead.
"I'm okay."
I could hear the hurt I'm her voice.
"Can we go talk."
"Yes"
We walked to the couch she put her feet on my lap.
I looked deeply into her eyes then she began to cry softly.
"I'm sorry Nicki."
"August you hurt me."
"I know and I'm sorry."
"Stop saying sorry."
"What else am I to say."
"Nothing I guess."
"Nicki look there is something I have to tell you."
I couldn't even look her straight in the face.
"Go ahead tell me."
"I went to my moms house yesterday to drop Harmony off. And I got some news. That shocked the fuck out of me. But this all happened before. We meet. Hell I didn't even know until yesterday. I have a son."
It was silent...
"Okay."
"That's it okay"?
"I mean yeah. I can't get mad. Matter of fact.. August I want to see you do good. Take care of your children. Be happy life is to short."
"Nicki come here."
"What August"!
She said as she stormed into our room packing the rest of her bags.
"Were are you going"?
"Away from you."
"Stop please hear me out"
"I'm listening"
"Nicki got damn! I love you"
"No you don't."
"Yes I do. What do I have to do to prove I'm in love with you"?
"Nothing, because I don't feel the same."
"Wait,what are you trying to say."?
"August I love you as a friend. You already have enough going on in your life. I can't do this any more. I want out"!
"Right so that's it huh ! Your leaving what about what you said. You will always be here. "
"And I will just as your friend."
"Alright fine."
"I'm sorry."
"Don't fuckin! Touch me "
I ran downstairs I got the keys to my car then got in. That's it what we had was a waist of time? I fuckin love her.
I stopped the car then went back into the house. She was gone just like that. Apart of me left to did I fall to deep in love with her ? Was this all a joke ? One day I planed on marrying her. But I guess God knows best right. Maybe this wasn't in his plan for us to be together.
- End of chapter 37. Vote / comment . Excuse any errors or mistakes.
