Enigmatic ✔

12|Breaking the rules (Hard Times)

Stella

"Here" Rose says walking into my room. I placed the book I was reading down and looked up at Rose.

"Rose..." I begin. She can't be seriously handing me a phone. I was I quite confused. Is this some sort of test?

"Here" She says once again. "I bought it for you, your an adult, Stella, you should have an phone, like any other normal individual"

I hesitate in taking it from her and instantly putting it under my pillow. "Rose I'm grateful but I don't think I should be accepting this"

"You shouldn't but you must" Rose replies. "What are you reading?"

"A book called 'Hard Times' by Charles Dickens"

"Perfect! Have you made the comparison between Mr. Gradgrind and your father or you and Louisa?"

"I'm nothing like Louisa...I mean, she's brave and not afraid to do the things she wants to do"

"Stella, why can't you see your worth?" She says placing a hand on the top of my head, ruffling it around. "You are brave for helping Hudson and you are not afraid to do the things you want to, you just need to believe it will work"

I nod. "Okay..I will try"

"How is Hudson?"

"Hudson is like the strongest person I know, nothing shakes him, he'll be fine" I tell her.

"That's a good trait to have in the situation he's in right now" Rose responds. "And Issac?"

"Issac keeps avoiding me sometimes, like today after lunch, he just jumped up and sprinted off to Chemistry class"

"Really? Have you asked him if it's anything serious?" Rose asks.

"Like he would answer me, he obviously is hiding something and I really just want him to tell me what it is"

"You can't get the answer to a question you didn't ask, Stella, ask him" She says before leaving to make dinner.

"Rose" I stop her by the door.

"Yes the Jack to my Rose"

I smile. "Thank you, for everything"

"Of course..Stella" She says closing bsck the door. "You are the reason I'm still here, I could have quit this job ages ago, but quitting it will mean I'll never get to see you grow into the young lady I know you will be one day"

"You do?"

"I do" She says. "Now I've already took the liberty of adding the necessary numbers and apps to your phone, so enjoy"

"Rose I must confess something to you, my heart is heavy"

"Oh dear, what is it?"

"I don't want to marry Issac" I tell her. "I know it is so far away but marrying Issac would be like Louisa marrying Mr. Bounderby and in the end she is so depressed..I don't want to experience that level of sadness"

"Maybe don't be like Loisa and marry a James Harthouse" She says. James Harthouse was the male in which Louisa associated herself with outside of her marriage. Since I only associated with two males I already knew it was Hudson.

"Oh no" I tell her, "I don't feel that way towards Hudson".

"The way your eyes lit up and the hint of redness across your cheek says otherwise" Rose inspects.

"Well that's because I've been doing something I'm ashamed of, I've been producing lubricating fluids" I say hiding my face with my pillow.

Rose removes it, "It's not something to be ashamed of Stella, it's completely normal at this age"

"But it's the first time I've experienced it" I say.

"Correction: It's the first time you've met a boy you're attracted to"

"Really?"

"Pay attention to the signs love"

"I'm not allowed to pay attention to the signs, Issac and I are together"

"Both of us know, you don't want to be with Issac, Stella" Rose gets up again. "Have fun with your new device"

Once Rose walks out, I take up the phone and walk into my closet, since I wasn't allowed to have my bedroom door locked.

I pressed the home button, something I learnt from the internet and there were some beautiful roses on the screen. When I went into contacts I saw;

Rose

Hudson

How did Rose get Hudson's number? Of course I understood why she didn't put in my parents number or Issac as he was so if not too tight with my parents and couldn't keep his own mouth around them.

For some reason I press on Hudson's name calling it, mostly just to see if it was actually him.

"Stella?" Hudson answers the phone.

"Uh Y-Yes" The stuttering is back. "How did Rose get your number"

"All she said was 'I have my ways', she called me and gave me your number, we talked for a while about the most random shit, anyway, you got a phone, how do you feel?"

"I don't know yet, if my parents find out she will get into alot of trouble"

"She of course knew that before she gave you the phone, she obviously trusts you to keep it safe"

"Why didn't you like me when we first met?" The question just pops out of my mouth even though we weren't on the topic.

"Thought you were against me" He answers simply. Another thing with Hudson, unlike Issac, he always answered my questions.

"And you've finally seen that I'm not?"

"Kind of, your bit different and complicated"

"I understand the different part, but, how am I complicated?"

"With your back and forth, you confuse me"

"I confuse myself" I tell him, laughing. "How are you by the way?"

"You mean otherwise than feeling weird because the whole town wants my head, oh yea, I'm perfectly fine"

"I'm really sorry you have go through this" I tell him, sincerely.

"It's fine" Hudson replies. "Now I need to go make something for Henry, I'll catch you later, bye"

"Bye Bye" I say before he hangs up the phone.

After I decided to look fir the best place in my closet to hide it from my parents. If they find it, therre will be horrible consequences which I am not ready to face.

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