Enigmatic ✔

32|Promises

Stella

"I never want to see the jealous side again" Hudson says.

The circles he's drawing on my back with his fingers is relaxing.

I'm so glad I didn't seen Shay today and as much as I would like to question her, I couldn't deal with it today.

"I never want to show it, again" I tell him with my eyes closed. I'm really tired so I rest with Hudson, tired both emotionally and mentally. I really didn't want to argue or fight with anybody anymore. I was drained. I just wanted to lay here with Hudson. I wish it be like this forever. But sadly reality wouldn't allow it.

"Hudson I don't even want to dream of being with anybody else but you" I tell him.

"I know that, Stella-"

"Even if I may behave odd sometimes, I really care about you"

"I know that too, Stella" Hudson slightly laughs, "What is up with you today?"

"Today at the library, I really thought you would leave me, I don't ever want to feel that way again"

Hudson takes my hand in his, "How about I make you a promise? As long as we both shall live, I will belong to you and nobody else"

I look up at Hudson with a smile on my face, "Promise?" I stick out my pinky.

"I promise, Stella" He says.

I just prayed and hoped he would never be tempted to break that promise.

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The other day, after lunch, I went to use the bathroom. I wish I hadn't, I really did not want to face this conversation with Shay but I couldn't show fear as much as I was afraid she apart of the disaster that happened.

"Stella, I thought we went to that party together" She speaks, she looks hurt, does she not know what happened?

I couldn't even find words to reply, as my face gets hot and memories from that night flood my mind.

"Y-You...Asher..." I couldn't even get words out and so I just walked out of the bathroom, but she just continued following behind me.

"Stella, really? No explanation..." She says. "What happened with Asher?"

I shake my head as I really don't want to even talk about it.

"Are you okay?" Shay asks as tears pour out of my eyes. I try to stop them but they have escaped. I cry alot when people care. I'm full on sobbing as Shay approaches me, she's really close right now and I feel her wrap her arms around me.

But I didn't want her to. I didn't trust her, she couldn't have been friends with Asher and didn't know he was like that or even sense it and she keft me alone with him. Obviously knowing what was going to happen.

But I had to be mean, even though I hated it, I pryed her hands off me.

"S-Shay please..leave..." I say. "I don't trust you..."

"What? Why? Please at least some explanation Stella, I thought we were becoming friends Stella"

I wanted to find the words to be rude to her and tell her I think she had a part to play but my voice wouldn't let me, I don't think I've even ever been verbally rude in my life.

"You didn't even say anything about yesterday. I went to your house and nobody was there..."

I began walking away from her because I didn't know what else to say. She grabs my bruised wrist, I cry out in pain and she instantly lets go.

"I'm sorry" She says, "But Stella how can you walk away from me without an explanation, without some sort of reason. Stella I haven't even had the chance to tell you how I feel"

She reaches for my cheek before she presses her lips on mine. It only lasts for a split second before I pull away.

'ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ....ᴏʀ ʜᴀs sʜᴀʏ ᴀʟʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ᴅɪʙs'

Asher's voice plays in my head. This was what he meant? Shay likes me?

But why? She's never even...

"Stella I want to tell you a long time ago, that's why I even got that job, my father isn't dying Stella I just wanted to spend time with you"

Oh my God. What is my life turning into?

"Just think about it, okay?" She says before walking off.

I stand in the hallway, more than confused. Why would Shay tell such a lie? I can't believe she would do this. Another reason why I wanted to go public with Hudson.

"Stella?" I look up to see Issac walking over to me. I really didn't want him to see me like this.

"Hey, Stella, what's going on?"

"My life is a complete mess, that's what's going on Issac, I used to have rules, morals, parents to look up to, and now everything's every where, I don't want to do this anymore. I can't continue pretending, everything's fine.

My parents keep pressuring me to be the perfect daughter but I can't, the way they expect me to live doesn't suit me anymore, I've changed, I'm not like the old Stella who was without emotions or feelings, I'm different, I feel now and I care about the feelings of others.

But with that came consequences."

"Consequences like what Stella?" Issac asks.

"It doesn't matter, me talking about it doesn't make me feel better, it makes me feel worse right now."

I begin walking to the parking lot. I found my car and got in it before driving off.

I shouldn't be driving in this state but I needed to get out of there. Images of my life keep flashing before my eyes and my feet goes down on the gas pedal. I'm going to fast, I know but why can't the pain stop. I needed it to stop.

Thoughts of a way to stop it ran through my mind and I didn't want to go home because I knew where I would end up.

Where was Hudson when I needed him.

He's not here Stella, you need to be strong on your own again.

But what if I can't be?

You need to.

I take a deep breath and I relax my foot on the gas pedal. I would go home and sleep nothing more but if it gets too much, Hudson is just a call away.

The vibration of my phone drags me out of my thoughts and I answer it putting it on speaker, "Hello?"

I already knew it was one out of the three contacts in my phone.

"Stella?" Sheriff Myles says happily.

"Sheriff, hi"

"Stella the killer finally messed up, some dna was found at the crime scene, killer is a female between ages of 35-45"

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