Enigmatic ✔

16|I heard you (Happiness)

Stella

"Well I'm listening, justify it, Stella" Hudson looks at me from his position on the bed.

"I'm trying to gather my thoughts" I tell him.

I say to him. He then gets up and walks away from me, going into his bathroom, I then hear the shower turn on.

I have definately made an unnecessary mistake and now I don't know how to fix it. Hudson will never trust me again and I doubt he'll let us continue the investigation together, he probably hates me now, the thought of it makes something rise in my throat, I don't want that. Ever.

Oh what did I do?

My cheeks are tear stained when I look into the mirror after a long while and Hudson walks out of the bathroom, clothed. Thankfully. I was already frustrated enough, maybw that is what has me on edge, making horrible decisions and making me grumpy.

"I didn't mean what I said" I tell Hudson whilst he searches for a pair of socks.

He continues to go through his things taking a out a black and gray pair, sitting on his bed putting it on.

He doesn't look angry, anymore just confused, cold water can do wonders.

"Tell me what happened Stella, I thought we didn't lie to each other, I told you what happened that day with the supermarket incident, figured you could talk to me just the same."

"I've been dealing with something Hudson, I've been confused about it, the thing which I mentioned earlier, and for a second I thought not seeing you would make it go away, but I don't want you to go away either in the process, just the feeling"

Hudson looks at me for some time before saying, "Okay" He continues, "What do you think now Stella?

"I think I'll find a way to surpress it on my own"

"I don't know how yet but I will just-"

I'm cut off my sentence when Hudson quickly presses his lips on mine, our lips are attached to each other, I'm kissing someone, it feels amazing, it's just like the ones you'd see in movies, well only in the five or three that I've watched, I can't remember clearly, it was a very long time ago. Hudson's lips are so soft, it's feels so perfect that it's something indescribable, I could do this forever.

I look at Hudson's glossy lips when he pulls away, he stole my first kiss and I am not even the slightest bit upset, Rose was right, when it came down to Hudson or Issac, the answer really was clear, but I couldn't handle the fact that I just cheated on my boyfriend.

"Hudson" I whisper. "You just made it worse" I tell him. The tingling is out of control now.

"I can take it away, Stella, just say the word"

"I can't" I tell him touching my lips. "I can" I then say.

Which one is it?

I'm confused. Maybe it wouldn't be as gross as I imagined.

But then what if it is?

I don't know how but I find myself laying on Hudson's bed, what was I doing?

Hudson kisses me for a second time, it's even better than the first but I'm really nervous, I don't understand what is happening.

"Stella" Hudson pulls away. "Your making me lose circulation"

I look at my grip on his arm and I loosen it. "I'm sorry" I giggle.

"It's fine" He tells me and I'm so happy it is, after numerous kisses, I start to loose count, how can something described as disgusting feel this good?

Hudson is kissing my neck and I am out of this world, what kind of magic is he performing around there? He kisses close to my ear and I make an very weird sound as if teasing me, he started to kiss there alot and I continued to make the weird sound.

"Stella" He says.

"What?" I breathe.

"Your going to wake my aunt" He tells me.

"You are the one that's making me make the weird sound"

"You call moaning a weird sound?"

"Is that what they refer to it as?"

Hudson nods, laughing, but it's not really directed at me more like his thoughts on the matter, I guess.

"Shh" I tell him placing a finger over his lips, "Now you are the one that is going to wake your aunt"

But he laughs even louder dropping to the other side of the bed. "Hudson" I say to him taking up a pillow to muffle his laughter but he tickles me so I let it go, giggling like crazy trying to shield my sides from his fingers, but I failed, I was laughing up to a point where I couldn't breathe.

That's when Hudson stops.
It takes a while for my breathing to go back to normal.

"How do you feel now?" Hudson says helping me out of the bed. "I feel so much better"

Before this, I was extremely frustrated and angry. But only thing I feel now is joy and anxiety. The anxious part I could deal with.

"Anytime that happens, you could always just think about something that grosses you out or masturbate"

"And if it continues?"

"My door is always open" He tells me literally opening his door.

"Thank You Hudson" I tell him.

Hudson laughs, "Come here"

He says and I walk forward only to have Hudson engulf me in a hug, he smells nice and I really don't want to leave him, to go home to a family I'm somewhat resented by. I don't want to go to some stupid dinner and pretend we're all happy. For just five more minutes I want to be with someone that makes me happy.

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