Enigmatic ✔

22|Headstrong

Stella

"Your Stella, right?"

I look around to face the girl that was at Hudson's house the other day.

"I'm Jessica, but you can call me Jess" She says extending her hand.

I shake it but there was a vibe I was picking up from her, I don't know, I really didn't like it.

"It's a pleasure to meet you, Jessica" It seems I'm getting better at lying, something I'm not proud of. I didn't like the concept of lying, but it just slipped out as it was something I'd normally say after meeting new people.

"Same" She says. I go back to writing extra notes for Law before my teacher gets to class and I hope Hudson would hurry back from the bathroom to take back his seat that Jessica intentionally burrowed.

"I wasn't aware that you and Hudson were friends" She tells me. "I wonder how that came about?"

I wasn't sure as to how to answer her question.

"What do you mean?" I question her.

She moves closer to me and I can instantly smell the smoke on her, "I mean, when did you guys even start talking? Or better yet does your parents know your conversing with the enemy? Have you told them about your secret rendevous-the kissing"

I turn around.

"Oh don't look so frightened little Ms. Perfect, Hudson is like that with every girl, just wait until he gets tired of you, he'll throw you to the side like he did me, enjoy it while it lasts sister" She says before leaving the table. 

I suddenly can't breathe. I needed to get out of here. I take up my books and my school bag. My head is pounding with so many different things and I fear I may faint.

None of this could be true, I let Hudson do things to me that nobody else has done. He broke down the wall I put up somehow and stepped into my life without any warning whatsoever.

My breathing becomes shaky as my mind is clouded. I can't think straight. Was my father right in everything he told me? Have I been wrong and actually helping a killer? Is Hudson the person I think he is? Did he tell Jessica everything we did?

A flood of unanswered questions attack me and I stop by the locker's not really having the strength to go any futher.

Everything was just perfect with Hudson, this all really just has to be a dream.

"Stella?" I hear that voice behind me. "Are you leaving?"

I turn around to face Hudson. What do I say to him? He moves forward and I step back.

"Is something wrong?" He asks.

I still am lost for words. I do not know how to reply.

"What's up?" He continues to ask.

"A-Are you p-playing with me?" I ask him.

"What are you talking about?"

"I said, are you playing with me Hudson? Is this some sick game? What is this?"

"Stella, I think your just a bit exhausted-"

"Your right. I am exhausted Hudson of everybody in my life treating me like crap-something disposed of without a second thought"

"What happened while I was in the bathroom?" He begins putting the pieces together.

"My eyes were opened to the person who you really are" I tell him.

He stares at me for a second in disbelief, "Your fucking kidding me, right Stella? We're going down this road again?"

He continues, crossing his arms, "Well then, tell me Stella, who am I truly?"

"You already know what you are Hudson and I talked to Jessica..."

Hudson replies, "Of course, you did and you believed every word she said right? What even upset me more than Jessica talking shit about me, is the fact that you believed every word she uttered Stella and when you realized how you just fucked up and want to come apologizing, I don't want to hear it, I'm done this time Stella, for real"

"You are a piece of work, I swear, it's messed up how people can control your mind so easily Stella, when we met you were so headstrong and now your parents have broken you down to the point where you don't even remember who you are and I've been here to do nothing but remind you of that and now your going to believe what anybody else says about me when you are literally the only person who is even remotely close to seeing how soft I truly am?"

"And I know you're going through shit but aren't we all?, I've tried to help you Stella and this is what I get in return, I don't want to deal with this anymore..I honestly thought we were pass this."

Hudson says before he walks away. I'm filled with so much different emotions right now and I need to just scream, everything Hudson said was the truth, how could I be so stupid?

I wasn't joking when I said I didn't know who I was anymore and Hudson really was trying to help me. I'm paranoid. I thought he was against me and now I've made an even bigger mistake, we were fine. I was just happy and now this girl has ruined everything. I have ruined everything.

I walk back into the classroom but Jessica is no longer in there.

My head feels like it's going to explode as I just walk away from the classroom. Luckily, I find Hudson as he's walking to his car. I wouldn't be surprised if he ran me over with it.

"Hudson" I say but he just angrily looks at me before driving off. Could I blame him though, I would've done the same.

I didn't even talk to him first. I just accused him. I really messed up this time.

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