Enigmatic ✔

6|Defiance

Stella

When I got home, my mother was thankfully still asleep, I walked up the stairs and to my room, to change out of this dress and into something more comfortable, since it was time to go to bed, I was so tired that I couldn't even enjoy my three hours of free time.

While I laid in bed, I thought about what Hudson had done at the car, why would he do that?, he was absolutely rude to invade my personal space. But the more I thought about the way his body was pressed against mine, I felt my insides get hot and downstairs felt....wet?

Did I get my period?!

I run to the bathroom only to meet a clear liquid, oh lord am I sick then?

I sat my pondering what I was gonna do.

Seconds passed.

Aha! I could always my free time to research what this meant!.

I searched the reason behind my wetness and they spoke of sexual arousal?

What could that be? Is it a disease? Am I by any chance dying? 

Your vagina and vulva might become wet to help lubricate the genitals.

Your vagina becomes more wet because the glands produce lubricating fluids.

No stop. I don't want to see anymore. I clear my browsing data and go back into my bed, I had to stay away from Hudson.

Whatever it was it couldn't happen. But now I would be proving Hudson right, if I left, and I hated being wrong.

I close my eyes hoping sleep would take over my body soon so these inappropriate thoughts would stop. If I had a phone, I'd call Issac and ask him about his day, I could just journey downstairs to use the housephone but right now that appeared to be so much work.

"How dare you defy me, Stella?" My mother bursts into my room. I wasn't allowed to lock my room door which I didn't have a problem with until now.

"Defy you?" I question having my knees sink into my bed.

"You went to give your statement, your father went down to station to get the latest update and the case and the sheriff greeted him by saying his daughter helped him out, I am dissapointed Stella"

"Why? Because I did the right thing?" I ask. I almost laugh at my mother's dullness. What kind of idiotic conversation is this?

"Because you went against your father and I, for some boy you barely know" She spits.

I looked at my mother, was she right?  Was I rude by doing something she asked me not to?

Even though it was the right thing to do maybe I should've handled the situation differently.

My mother is the one that continues this conversation, "Stella, this will never happen again" Is all she commands, I nod before she strolls out of my room.

I lay my head back down onto my pillow trying to seperate hie I was feeling, on one hand I was completely and utterly heartbroken that my parents were dissapointed in me, that would be the first time I've ever heard my mother say such a thing, but on the other hand I was correct in helping Hudson, I didn't let a killer free.

I was beginning to get an headache and so I pushed my thoughts out of my head drifting off to sleep.

Why'd you spend your time leading the chorus
When the war was just waiting before us?
As if you didn't know
You ignored all the darkest of warnings
Found our end in the silence of morning
It fell beneath the cold

I woke up to singing. It sounded perfect so I instantly figured out who it was, "Good morning, love" Rose allowed her lips to stretch to either side of her face.

"Good morning, Rose" I returned, sitting up on my bed as Rose handed me my cup of tea. I took a sip, "Oh I've missed this" I tell her. Rose took a few days off of work after father's trial to attend to her son who was in the hospital.

"How is William?" I ask her.

"He's much better, thank you for asking" She says.

I figured I needed another opinon on the Hudson matter and so I urged Rose to sit down on the bed beside me and began to tell her all about it. From start to end.

"What must I do?..." I ask Rose once I was finished.

"I think your mother is probably just mad about what happened-about the fact that you did something she asked you not to and it would seem your fighting against your father but with what you've told me the police is wrong and Hudson really isn't the killer"

"As I said before" I remind her. "But he refuses to confess.."

"In his eyes you're the enemy Stella, your father-"

"Oh spare me the grave repercussions of me finding comfort in telling you this, I will not stand to hear anyone else tell me about my father, Him and I aren't each other and I will not let anybody tell me otherwise"

"Oh forgive me Stella, I wasn't saying you to are the same, I was saying even though your father is the lawyer that tried to put him in prison and so of course he would feel you are against him Stella, so from now on, you know you have to make a choice, it would be Hudson or your father, you can't play on both teams, one of them are going to lose in the end Stella."

"The situation is urging me to choose between the man that has raised me and I love more than anything and a boy who is being bullied by the town for a crime he did not while the killer romes free" I sigh, "I won't, I won't choose, I'm staying out of it, they will figure it out on their own, that way niether I or them will be hurt in the end" I get up out of my bed to start getting ready for school.

"I know you want to think that Stella but I know your heart is saying something different and something tells me you've already made your choice you just don't want to admit it to me, but love, admit it to yourself" Rose smiles before exiting the room but not before reminding me to eat my breakfast before it was too cold.

"I'll be downstairs if you need me" She says. I sigh sitting down on the bed and taking up my toast. Rose was right, I couldn't stay out of it where wrongful acts were being committed.

I suppose she was right about me already making my choice, but I couldn't do that, I couldn't just be on one side, it would hurt one and prove the other one right and I've said I hated being wrong.

I sat down at my table, using a couple minutes out of my free time to research the murder of Hudson's parents.

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