Enigmatic ✔

15|Listen....👂

Stella

I get into the shower but the tingling continues, why isn't the water helping anymore. I look down, "Would you stop that?" I ask.

It's making me uncomfortable knowing what it even wants. What this even means. I wish I had never researched it, I wish all of this wasn't of knowledge to me, now I know why my parents would want to keep it from me, it's absolutely digusting.

My stomach starts hurting and I know this time it's not my period because I got it last week. I'm absolutely starving.

"You need to stop now as I'm going to get something to eat" I continue to look down. It's not listening.

"Ugh" I express before grabbing my towel and then putting on my clothes.

"Rose" I call by the door when I walk over to her room I had made myself a sandwich by then. "I need your help"

"With what, love?" Rose sits on her bed and closed the book she was reading.

"My body, it's frustrating me, my downstairs want to do inappropriate things but I don't, I just need it to stop, it happens everytime Hudson does these things I'm attracted to and I can't stop it, I really want to but I can't"

For some reason, Rose begins laughing in my very serious moment, "Sorry, but Stella your the first person I've ever heard talk like this, its a normal thing, Stella, your body is behaving like that of a normal teenager, and I'm sorry Stella but you can't stop it"

"But I need to and I'm not ready for anything even relatively close to intercourse"

"Oh Stella" She says. "I'm sorry but all you can do is suppress it when it arrives until it goes away"

"That's what I've been trying to do"

"Okay. Did you talk to Hudson about the things he's doing I mean?"

"Not properly, but yes-he told me to meditate"

Rose burts into laughter. Is there something in this conversation she finds particularly funny?

"Rose!" I scold her.

"Stella, I don't know what you want me to tell you honestly, your horny you have sex, you masturbate or you supress it, that's all I know so that's all I can tell you"

"M-masturbation-what is that?"

"Oh this is going to be a long day" Rose exaggerates before proceeding to tell me everything she knows about intercourse.

And I mean EVERYTHING.

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I lay in bed scarred by what Rose has told me. It's absolutely weird.

The other day at school, Hudson didn't show up, I had mixed feelings about that. Thankful that I wouldn't have to feel that way today, but sad that I wouldn't get to talk to him.

I left my phone hidden in my house so I couldn't call him or anything. Issac was also avoiding me today he thought I wouldn't notice, but I did.

My dad had invited his parents over for dinner so I would ask him what was wrong then and if I could help with whatever he was going through.

After school, I found my self driving to Hudson's, mother had to supervise detention so she told me to drive myself home today, so I just had to get home before she did, I just want to to see if he was okay though and that nothing else happened, it shouldn't take long.

I knock on the door, to greet an unfamiliar face, "Hello" She smiles.

"Uh..Good Afternoon, I just wanted to-"