Enigmatic ✔

29|Parties aren't your thing.

(Contains sexual references)

Stella

Hudson rejected my offer to accompany him to the party. He said I was forcing myself to go. Although that may be true, I still wanted to go so I called Shay and told her I had to cancel our plans and then I invited her to the party with me, she aid she wanted to come and I wasn't sure how to feel because then she'd know about Hudson and I.

Maybe she could keep it a secret for me?

"How about this one?" She asks holding up a much too reaveling black dress.

"It's very...uh...open" I let out.

"That's the point, Stella" She says, "But it's a bit tall"

I look at the length of the dress is it were any shorter she might as well went naked.

She strips in front of me before putting a white one now which was very much shorter, "Perfect" She sighs.

"Want to burrow the black one?" She questions. My eyes opened wider, Is she actually serious.

"No, I'm quite fine" I say to her.

I begin looking in my closet for something to wear and the thought of Hudson maybe being correct crosses my mind, but I just wanted to see what it was like, maybe I'll enjoy it so I don't have to be worried about Hudson leaving me because some Stephanie, Roxan or whoever wears revealing clothes and parties like there is no tomorrow.

Insecurity is a new feeling I've started experiencing. I didn't like it one bit. It was making me a little depressed.

"Oh that one isn't so bad" Shay says pointing to a yellow dress in my closet. I take it up putting it against my body, it isn't?

"No actually" She changes her mind. "It is"

I put it back down. Deeply sighing.

"Stella I really think you should burrow one of my outfits Stella"

I looked at her, "I guess it wouldn't hurt" I tell her.

After skipping through I actually found something that wasn't too dramatic. "That's one's actually my least favorite" She tells me.

"Then it's perfect for me to wear" I say. She probably didn't like it because of he length or some other stupidity.

After I finish putting it on she sits in amazement.

"What? Does it look awful?" The feeling of insecurity is back.

"No Stella, it's actually fucking perfect, I've never really liked it because I've never had the curves to wear it but Stella..You were hiding all of that under your usual clothes?"

I'm not sure if I should take this as a compliment or a diss?

"Oh you'll have boys on their knees Stella"

"Well it is a bit tight, maybe I should change.."
Shay doesn't give me the time to change as she drags me out of the house.
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When we arrive at the party, I see most of the things my parents have kept me from for the longest time as soon as we are at the door the smell of sweat and alcohol is thick.

Shay holds my hand through the crowd and leads me over to a pair.

"Guys, this is Stella" Shay smiles toward a girl and a guy.

"Asher" The guy says.

"And I'm Paisley" The girl adds. Not knowing what else to do I smile at them. I wasn't good with new people and I also just wanted to find Hudson.