|✔|Konoha Academy's Betrayal |Sakura x Kiba|

23.) An Unnecessary Necessary Talk

I wait in the gazebo in the park for Sasuke to show up. He said that we was coming, but I will believe it when I see it. I'm beyond nervous and terrified of what this will accomplish. I have a feeling I'm going to break down, and maybe that's okay. Maybe if he sees how destroyed I am he will be honest and give me the answers I seek. I can only hope though at this point.

Off in the distance I can see Sasuke walking towards me down the path, and my stomach flips. Great now I feel sick. I know I shouldn't but I want to run and hug him and tell him I forgive him, but I know that's not an option. What he did was unforgivable and I can't be with someone who would do that to me.

I don't stand when he reaches me, I can't even bring myself to look at him. A wave of regret washes over me, this was a really bad idea. I should have never listened to Kiba.

Sasuke breaks the ice after sitting down next to me, leaving a person size gap between us. "You wanted to talk?" he asks in his normal cool tone.

He seems to be unfazed by being here with me, and that hurts more than I thought it would. I nod and continue to look at the wood floor of the gazebo. I know I need to say something but I don't know where to start or even what to say. All that goes through my mind is why. Before I know it I'm asking. "Why?" I mumble.

There is only silence that follows after my one word. The tears start to surface, making my nose tingle and I blink them back. "Was it that horrible with me, to make you go to her..." I whisper almost unable to finish. As the words leave my mouth they almost seem unreal, like it's not me that's asking them.

"No." Sasuke replies quietly, his gaze the same as mine, focused down at the wooden floor.

I give up and let the tears silently roll down my cheek. I knew this was how it was going to go, but I texted him to come anyway. I don't know how I'm going to get any answers from him. I slowly take a deep breath. "I don't understand what I did to deserve this." I say with a quiet shaky voice.

Sasuke looks over at me. "You don't deserve this, don't ever think that." He says quietly but just as coldly as he normally speaks. Maybe if there was a sliver of warmth in his words I may believe him.

I laugh painfully. "Well I do Sasuke. And I will until you tell me why." I retort coldly.

Sasuke looks at me like I stabbed him and then looks back down. The conversation feels like it's just going in circles and I really don't want to sit here all day saying the same things.

"I thought about it on the way over you know." Sasuke mumbles from next to me. "I owe you an explanation Sakura..." He continues and then trails off.

Could I actually get a reason from him? Hope suddenly flairs in me and I look over at him through my watery eyes. "Yes, you do." I reply quietly.

He sighs and continues to look down. "I guess I thought that mindless flirting was okay, as long as it didn't mean anything. Then Karin got my number and started to send me pictures..." He says slowly.

I look at him expectantly. This may actually work. I'm angry that he thought it was okay to flirt with other girls while with me, that's not okay in anyway.

He takes a deep breath and looks over at me hesitantly, like he doesn't know if he should go on. I stare at him and wait for him to continue. He looks down at the ground again. "She started talking to me sexually. I knew I should block her number or not respond but I didn't and before I knew it we were sneaking around."

And that's when the anger hit me. It was all because I wouldn't put out... I guess I knew that it had to have been that, I just didn't want to believe that Sasuke was one of those guys that needed that in a relationship or it wasn't worth it. Suddenly I'm thankful that I said no all those times it felt like he was pressuring me to.

I look over at Sasuke bewildered that it really came down to that. "So it really just came down to me not sleeping with you." I mumble quietly.

Sasuke shakes his head. "It was never about that with you Sakura. You know that." He replies like he's trying to defend himself and his disgusting actions.

I never thought it would be possible to not love Sasuke but it is. Right now I have only one feeling towards him and that's disgust. I find that I'm asking myself what was so special about him that made me love him so blindly, and right now nothing comes to mind. His silky black locks make me cringe, his deep onyx eyes make me want to look away, and the sound of his deep voice no longer makes my heart flutter. For the first time in a long time I am free of him.

I stand and shake my head. "All I know Sasuke is what you just told me, and it's pretty clear that it all boils down to sex." I reply coldly to him before walking away.

Part of me thinks he will chase after me and continue to defend his actions but he doesn't. For the first time in the last ten days I feel lighter, like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders and I can breathe again. Before now I couldn't see life being complete without Sasuke, but now, now I can see the blinding light at the end of this chapter of my life and it actually makes me want to smile.

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(,(')(') Authors Note❀ So this chapter is dedicated to AranzaRoe for her awesome suggestion to put in a closure chapter to explain why Sasuke did what he did.