I wish I felt the same.. \\•Fitz x Swaggersouls•//

Chapter 5

~LATER THAT NIGHT~

At the Club...
Me and the boys had taken an Uber to the club as we didn't feel like driving.

And because we knew we'd all be way too fucked to drive after.

I sat in the front seat of the minivan as it was one of the only vehicles that we could find that'd fit all of us. Eric, Toby, and Matt sat in the middle row while John, Jaren, Jay, and Mason all squished together in the very back row.

Me and Toby had offered to buy everyone drinks and Ryan said he'd also pitch in which made everyone pretty happy. Hey! Free drinks! Who wouldn't be excited?

I mean, I was only doing this to hopefully get Eric's attention and Toby was also in on it. Ryan just volunteered for the heck of it which I didn't mind too much.

We were getting nearer to the Club when I heard some laughing from the farthest seats of the van.

I turned in my seat to see Mason, Jay and the others back there laughing at something that Eric was showing them.

I raised an eyebrow and spoke up. "Hey mates, what are y'all laughing at? Could I see?" I say, smiling slightly. Eric looked towards me and his smile dropped. It confused me as to why he did this but I shrugged it off and asked once more.

"What's so funny?" I chuckle, tilting my head. Eric coughed and turned back into his seat, resting the phone in his lap. From where I was, I couldn't tell what it was. "It's nothing, just an inside joke." Eric said lowly.

I furrowed my brows and frowned. "I can't be involved?" I asked, getting kinda annoyed. Eric shrugged, not even making eye contact with me, and continued to scroll through his phone. "It's nothing Cam, don't worry about it!"

I huff and turn back towards the road, crossing my arms over my chest like a 5 year old. I saw the driver glance towards me but immediately look back at the road. "I'll tip extra mate.." I said lowly, hopefully to make up for the chaos happening in the van.

He nodded, a smile peeking at his lips. I chuckled and pulled out my phone to start scrolling on Twitter.

~Small Time Skip~
After about another 15 minutes, we finally arrived to the Club. I'd never thought I'd be so happy to leave a minivan in my life.

I ended up tipping the driver 20 bucks and sent him on his way. I watched as the guys filed out of the van as I waited by the front door. Toby joined me at the door as we waited for the others and he saw the anger on my face as Eric walked past me into the building. "Why the long face mate?"

I grunt lowly and flare my nose. "It's nothing..." I say deeply, looking down at my shined shoes. "What a waste a shoe shine.." I thought to myself.

Toby pat me on the back and lifted my chin up to look at him in the face. "Cam, don't lie to me, it's what happened with Eric isn't it?"

I scowled at the mention of his name and sighed before nodding. Toby pursed his lips. "Thought so...It was only a funny video with Pokimane and Carson, nothing too special. Don't worry about it." Toby stated reassuringly.

I scoffed and crossed my arms over my chest once more. "Really, Eric couldn't show me a video of that!?" I rolled my eyes and opened the doors to enter inside. I was immediately hit in the face with flashing lights and loud music and the very strong smell of alcohol.

I also got a faint scent of weed...wait...that's Eric. I groaned and held my head in my hands. I can't get him out of my mind. I think of him all the time. I feel almost...obsessed..

Me and Toby walked to the booth that all the guys decided to sit at. In order from left to right sat John, Jaren, Mason, Jay, Toby, Me, Eric, and then Matt and Ryan. Of course I had been forced to sit next to Eric, the ONE person I didn't want to be by right now.

The guys all ordered their first round of drinks but I just stuck with a water for now. I wanted to be sober when I told Eric how I felt so I would know what I was saying. But of course, confessing my feelings to him was the last thing on my mind at the moment.

Every now and then, Eric's hand would brush against my thigh and I'd get a spark of...lust you could say. My heart would begin to beat faster and my head would spin.

I couldn't control myself from feeling this way around him. I don't know why or how but something about Eric drove me insane. To the point where I would scream inside my own head, cursing at myself for feeling the way I do for him.

I felt like I was being teased by him. Like I was being punished for having these feelings.

I know Eric didn't mean to do these things but they felt..almost intentional.

I guess Toby saw my squirming and he got my attention by nudging my side. "You alright?" He said, taking a sip of his whiskey. I swallowed and nodded, looking straight ahead at some of the dancers on the stage.

He bites his cheek and sighs, knowing he couldn't change how I felt. "Just let me know if you need anything..." He mumbled into my ear.

I nodded and closed my eyes, leaning back against the booth.

The night continued on with the same things happening. Mason or John would stand up on a table and wave their shirts around in a circle above their heads, we'd continue drinking, and my heart would be racing.
The.
Whole.
Night.

Finally Toby convinced me to get up and go onto the dance floor to try and ease my mind. I accepted and started to dance around with him, laughing and having some drinks.

Until that dreaded moment.
The moment when that song came on.
The moment that Eric came to the floor.
And we made eye contact.