I wish I felt the same.. \\•Fitz x Swaggersouls•//

Chapter 13

~ERICS POV~
Cameron spent the next 3 hours of the day explaining to the guys what he's been going through and why he hasn't been social for the last week and a half.

They all understood and knew what had happened the night of the Club. (Except for Mason and myself)

"I just thank..most.." Cameron cut his eyes towards me and Toby. "of you for giving me the time and space that I've needed." He had been crying as he told us what's been happening and I knew that he was embarrassed doing this in front of the others.

But he really needed to do it.

Me and the other guys gathered around him to either pay him on the back or bring him into a hug. I stayed slightly back and let them say their sorrys, admiring at how caring they were being beside their joking nature. Mason hadn't even cracked a joke the whole time we'd been sitting here.

They all went off their own ways to their room, Jaren and John going down the hallway as well as Mason and Jay. Toby and I stayed with Cameron to comfort him some more. He hadn't showed his arms to the rest of the boys but I didn't blame him, that's not really something you'd just tell the world.

I had my arm wrapped around his shoulders while Toby held Cam's hand in his own as warm tears fell down into his lap. It was so hard imagining Cameron this sad, in my arms, spilling his feeling to me and the rest of the group.

"Cameron, I'm proud of you for telling all of us what's been going on...seriously.." Toby says softly, bringing Cameron's hands up to his chest. I nodded and blinked slowly, looking into Cams eyes, hoping to find some emotion beside pain and heartbreak.

I did this...
I did this to him..

Cameron breathed out a shaky breath, his first shaking slightly. I pat his back softly, like a dad would his son. "Toby, do you think you could give me and Eric some privacy?"

~CAMS POV~
I ask Toby, tilting my head. He looks into my eyes, almost hurt but nods. "Of course, I'll be in my room if you need anything." I watch him as he stands up from the couch and walks into the hallway that led to his bedroom.

I cut my eyes back to Erics, taking a deep breath. "Eric...I'm sorry.." I say lowly, looking down to the floor as my cheeks flush slightly.

He sighs and places a hand on my knee. "Cameron...you don't have any reason to apologize...if anything, I should be apologizing to you. I've put you through all this...and I didn't even know I was doing it..I'm sorry.."

I felt a sob building up in my throat but I painfully swallowed it down, refusing to let it go. "Well...I forgive you. After telling all of you what's been happening..I already feel better...I'm not as upset anymore.." I state, the sting of tears pulling at my eyes again.

Eric shifts himself closer to me, our knees touching. He looked up to me, his brown eyes glazing over with tears, which surprised me that he was getting upset. I felt my heart beat speed up, the beating ringing through my ears.

A wave of unknown lust flushed over me as we stared into each other's eyes, his hand slowly moving up my knee to my thighs. He gave it a small squeeze and bit his lip. "Cameron...I really did mean it.."

He caught me off guard with what he said and I didn't understand what he meant. "What are you talking about?" I tilt my head slightly and furrow my eyebrows. "I meant it when I said I love you..." He says, it coming almost a whisper.

My eyes grow wider and I bite my lip.
He is gay..
Everything will be okay...
Hopefully..

An uncontrollable smile appeared on my lips and I blushed heavily. "I love you too Eric..." I say, my eyes joining his eyes before traveling down his face, taking in all his features. First his nose, then his mouth and chin, then down to his neck and collarbone.

I inched myself closer to him and my eyelids flutters slightly. I rested my hands on the base of his hips, wrapping my fingers around him and pulling him closer to me. I could hear his breathing hitch in his throat as I did this but he didn't stop me.

"Cameron?...what are you doing?" He asked me lowly, pressing his hands against my chest, his face mere inches from mine. I could almost feel his breath on mine as mine slowed down.

"Shh...be quiet for a second.." I respond, my hands moving up to his chest. His cheeks were slightly pink and he was biting his lip harder than before. The back of one of my hands brushes against his cheek, resting on his jaw.

My other hand followed those same movements and I was so close to him now, our noses brushed against each other's. "Cameron...please.." Eric pleads under his breath.

I cut him off by connecting my lips with his, his tender lips meeting my cracked, dry lips. I feel him tense up beneath my touch but quickly relax as I stroke his cheek softly. He shuts his eyes and I follow suit, shutting my eyes and sighing deeply.

After a couple more seconds of pure bliss, he pulls away from me, his chest heaving up and down to help catch his breath. I had a smug smirk on my lips while he had a worried face.

"That was nice.." I say lowly, licking my lips and chuckling. Eric looks down and closes his eyes once more.

"Oh god...I can't believe I did that.."
I furrow my eyebrows and frown.
I've ruined it.

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Finally updated!! Yay!! Well sorry it's kinda shorter than normal but I hope you enjoy! Vote and comment if you liked it!

-Emily 💗👋