a cold god finds his warm hart (a avengers/Loki love story) [COMPLETED!!!!]

Chapter 32

"Roy!" I called, gliding into the gardens. I found him sitting in the grass next to the river where I first spoke to queen Frigga what seemed like so long ago. Roy glanced up when he heard me call his name and he gave me a smile. I flew down beside him and sat with my legs cross in front of him. We sat in silence for a few moments. In the past year we have lost so much of the trust and family love for each other. We don't know how to freely talk anymore without being awkward and that makes me sad. I used to be so close to my brother but now, we're strangers.
"So, how are you?" I asked, trying to start a conversation. Roy cleared his throat and ran a hand through his short blonde hair.
"I'm doing ok, I guess. I'm sure Hiemdall has already told you I just got back from Earth about an hour ago"
"Yea, how'd that go?"
"It went ok, I didn't speak to anyone, I just wanted to remember what home looked like" Roy said, dropping his head. I gently chewed on my lip
"I'm sorry Roy, I'm home sick too but this is our home now, we'll be able to go to earth soon though. It'll just be different, a lot different" I mumbled. Roy looked up with a question in his eyes but he didn't ask which I was grateful for, I didn't have the heart to tell him Loki will be ruining everything.
"Maybe some day I'll convince Loki to let us go to Earth and you'll be able to talk to your friends again, just for a few hours" I offered. Roy nodded.
"Thanks Ace" he said, calling me by my old nickname. I smiled and sighed.
"Well I'm going to earth later, wanna come?" I asked.
"Yea, I'd love to, when are you leaving?" He asked.
"Um I don't know, ill let you know" I offered. Roy nodded.
"When are you getting married?" Roy asked.
"Honestly, I have no idea. Loki promised me different dates but they all get changed. So I don't know, we'll have to see" I told him. A few moments of silence passed between us.
"Hey so what happened between you and that servant girl, what was it like Lacey or something?" I asked.
"Liada" he said smiling.
"Yea! Are yall still a thing?" I asked, trying to cheer him up.
"Um I have no idea. We used to meet up at night by the fountain but these passed few days she hasn't showed up so I don't know"
"Oh, I'm sorry, you need to find out she's a cute girl" I told him. Roy smiled a little and shook his head.
"Ok, I will. She reminds me a lot of Mikayla" he told me. I nodded and smiled.
"Go find her, stop sitting around here all alone, it's bad for your health" I joked. Roy chuckled and sighed.
"Thanks Ace" he mumbled. I nodded and watched him stand up to leave the gardens. I sighed and leaned back against the grass and closed my eyes. I wonder how my coffee shop is doing, it's probably been closed for a long time by now, I haven't made any payments on it and I'm sure the kid I hired a long time ago left. Everything is changing now, over such a short period of time too.
"Aceleve?" someone called. I opened my eyes and standing above me was Thor, with a confused look on his face and his hair messily pushed behind his ear.
"What are you doing out here?" He asked. I sat up and smoothed down my hair.
"Nothin, I was talking with Roy earlier, now I'm just kinda hanging out" I told him. Thor nodded.
"Can I join you?" He asked. I shrugged and nodded
"Sure". He slowly got down beside me and had to sprawl out his long legs.
"So, how are you?" He asked, getting comfortable.
"I'm doing okay, still trying to get used to Asguard to be honest" I told him.
"I'm sure you'll get used to it eventually, how are you and my brother doing?"
"We're doing well, he's off running some sort of errands and I decided to hang out here. I need a break, I haven't had a relaxation day in a long time" I told him, closing my eyes.
"Well, if there was any place to suggest for relaxation it would definitely be the gardens, it's very peaceful" he told me. I nodded in agreement and opened my eyes.
"Definitely, I'm very comfortable"
Thor didn't say anything for a few moments but then he took a deep breath.
"I'm almost embarrassed to tell you this but" he began, his voice sounded strained
"I'm afraid I can't keep it to my self any longer. I'm, jealous of my brother" he said shyly. I sat up straight and squinted my eyes at him.
"Jealous of Loki? Why?" I asked him.
"Because, he, he has you" he whispered, looking up at me with crystal eyes.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, frowning.
"You Aceleve, I'm talking about you. Your smart and kind and a amazing warrior, my brother doesn't deserve you" he whispered again.
"How dare you-" I started but I was interrupted when I felt Thor's warm lips on mine. I started to pull away but he put his arm around my waist and pulled me into him. Then I relaxed, I relaxed into Thor and began to kiss him back, I was enjoying his warm soft lips against mine, I was enjoying his warm hand burning into my back, I was enjoying my lips not going numb. Why am I enjoying this!? I forced myself away from him and tripped trying to stand up.
"Aceleve!" Thor called. But I ignored him, I ran away and it felt like I was underwater, my knees were weak and Thor's calls sounded muffled and miles away. I couldn't see from my blurry tears and I had no idea where I was going, all I needed to know was that I had to get away from Thor. I ran and stumbled and took thousands of random turns until finally I opened a giant door and pulled it shut behind me and I got lost in the tall shelves of the library. I flew to the top of a shelf and backed myself into a dark corner and I wept. I wept for the guilt of letting it happen, I wept because it had to happen with Thor, and I wept because I enjoyed it. Somehow I have to keep from Loki finding out, I had to find a way to hide my thoughts from Cheen. I cried for I don't know how long but finally, when my body had no more tears i unfolded my legs from my chest and I wiped my face and focused my tired eyes.
I stared out of a window, the sky was dark and the moon and stars shone brightly. I shifted and looked up at the Galaxy like ceiling, the sky was alive, I watched the planets slowly rotate and I even saw a shooting star. I think Thor was wrong when he said Loki doesn't deserve me, I think it's the other way around, I don't deserve him. He deserves a strong woman who knows how to lead, he deserves a queen who shows no mercy, he deserves a goddess. I can't give him any of those things. I am not strong, I fake it, I could never be as harsh and he needed me to be, and I can't lead. I'm no where near a goddess, I'm a half-breed, a mutt, who doesn't deserve to live in such a beautiful castle and I don't deserve to be engaged to such a handsome god, a kind man, even if he doesn't believe that he is kind. I am such a horrible person, Loki doesn't need another loved one betraying him like I have. It's not my fault though, Thor took me by surprise. Loki has to forgive me, although I doubt he will but I'll try my hardest to get him to believe I am sorry. I'll get down on my knees and kneel to him, I will beg him. I will somehow show him that I am loyal to him. I took one last look around the beautiful library and slowly drifted down from the shelf and placed myself gently on the floor. I crossed my arms across my chest and slowly began walking towards the room I share with Loki. I'm so torn, if I tell Loki he'll be furious but if I don't, I don't know how long I'll be able to keep the secrete. I need to tell him, I'll tell him that Thor is the one who kissed me and that I was so surprised my body went slack. Which although it wasn't a lie, it wasn't completely the truth either. But then he'll pick a fight with Thor when they had just began to sorta be friends. I am so screwed.
"Aceleve" a deep voice called behind me. I woke from my thoughts and turned around, it was Loki , fuck. I gave him a weak smile and hid my face with my hair.
"Hello Loki" I whispered.
"Come with me, we need to talk" he whispered to me. My chest closed with fear and I slowly walked behind him. Loki's face was blank and hard and there was no emotion in his eyes. I'm terrified. We finally got to his room and he held the door for me and walked into the room after me.
"Before I get mad, I will let you explain what happened" Loki said evenly. I watched his pale hand clench and unclench to keep his temper under control. I swallowed down my fear and stared at his eyes.

Hey guys so new update! I'm so sorry. I am a horrible author for writing a oops between Aceleve and Thor. But I felt like this story needed more drama so here we are! Okay question, how the hell do you work the new create portion of the watt pad app?? Like goodness where did the fonts go!? I'm trying to write on my phone and I wanted Aceleve to have thoughts but no they took away my font! I wanted to make a time change but no they took away the bold!!! Give it back!! Now! Okay sorry anyway tell me what you guys think. Oh and I've decided this story isn't anywhere near finished. More chapters yay! Oh and sorry I forgot the authors note on the previous chapter. Oh well. I didnt need to say anything anyway. Alright Alons-y and stay fantastic!