a cold god finds his warm hart (a avengers/Loki love story) [COMPLETED!!!!]

Chapter 33

"I don't know who to blame, you or Thor" Loki said with disgust. I had just finished explaining to him what happened in the garden and now I can't tell if Loki is more furious or hurt.
"I'm sorry Loki, how can I make it up to you? I promise I will do anything to prove my love for you" I begged. Loki looked down on me and I couldn't see the emotion in his eyes. They were cold and hard, the eyes that used to look at me with love and compassion now have no emotion and I feel like crying. I squeezed my eyes shut to keep the tears in and took a deep breath.
"You said you would do anything to prove your love?" Loki asked.
"Yes, anything" I repeated.
"Make love to me"
"What?" I asked, my eyes snapped open.
"Make love to me" he repeated taking a few steps towards me. I stood up and faced him.
"How will this prove to you I love you?"
"It will allow me to get inside you, get close to you, to let me feel you, to seal a bond" Loki whispered, cupping my cheek with his hand. I sucked in a breath from his cold touch.
"I promised to sleep with you on our wedding night. After we have said our vows we will make love every night, any time we want" I whispered, placing my hand over his.
"Why won't you sleep with me, right now? If you love me so you will let me see your glorious naked body quivering in anticipation. I crave to hear the sound of you moaning my name" he whispered. I stood still, Loki is beginning to worry me. How badly he wants to de flower me is terrifying.
"Why don't you speak?" He whispered moving his hand to cup my neck.
"You can read minds, you can see how much sharing a bed with you scares me" I whispered, my voice quivered just slightly. Loki's eyes loosened and I could see the love that he has hidden from me.
"I want you Aceleve" he whispered. I swallowed and closed my eyes. Suddenly a vision of my adoptive father and his friends entering me. I opened my eyes and Loki sighed and dropped his hand.
"Im sorry" I whispered. Loki shook his head and didn't reply. I sat back down on the bed and pushed a loose piece of hair behind my ear.
"What happened in your past you can't change, I understand that but at some point your going to have to forget that nightmare and look forward to your dreams" Loki said, coming towards me and sitting next to me on the bed.
"I know, please don't be upset with me any longer I can't handle the look you gave me a few moments ago, the one that was so emotionless I felt like my heart would explode" I begged. Loki sighed and I reached over and grabbed his large, war damaged hands and held them in my soft tiny ones. His hands engulfed mine and I held onto them like they were my lifeline. I turned our hands until they were pressed against each other where the heels of our palms are together and the tips of my fingers come to the first notch of his hands.
"We are one right? You've told me this thousands of times. So can't you tell how sorry I feel? How guilty I feel?" I asked. Loki never met my eyes and he pulled his hands away from mine.
"I'm going to go talk to Thor. If his story matches yours, if he admits that it is him to blame. Then I will know that this was all a accident" he stated. I watched him walk out of the room and shut the door behind him. I pursed my lips to keep them from quivering, I hope that Thor tells the truth. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I don't know what to do now besides wait. I have no mood or energy to be productive and social. I don't feel like doing anything. I need to go find Bobbi and see how he's doing the last I saw of him he was running for his life and I was being arrested. Again. I sighed and opened my eyes and sat up again and stood from the bed. I pulled down my beautiful leather torso guard and straightened the purple corset bow ribbon on my back. I went to the mirror in the bathroom and made sure I looked presentable, and smoothed down my now uneven hair that went to the middle of my back, I really need to get my hair cut. I walked out of the bathroom and out of the bedroom and onto the cobblestone path that led to the castle. I slowly pushed myself into the air and silently flew overhead towards the bifrost.
"Good evening Aceleve. Heading out?" Heimdall greeted me.
"Yes, would you please take me to Midguard?" I asked politely. Heimdall nodded and pushed his grand sword into the pedestal and the power sucked me into the vortex of swirling rainbows and stars. I stumbled and nearly crash landed onto grass and sand. I regained my balance and looked around me. I have no idea where I'm at. I quickly jumped into the air before someone saw me, in all reality wearing my asguardian armor to earth was not my smartest idea. Looking around I finally noticed a sign in small print reading "California, the sunniest place on earth" awesome, California. Not the place I wanted to end up. I sighed and randomly began flying until finally I found a road sign saying that Texas was several miles up the road and from there I could get to my old home of Oklahoma. The trip is long and boring, and unfortunately it left me with my thoughts. I was so stupid! To think I could hide something so horrible from Loki of course he would find out, he's a god. And it had to be with Thor, Loki probably wouldn't be so angry if it had happened with Fandral or someone else. I love Loki, I'm sure of it but why did I enjoy Thor's kiss? Why did I enjoy the warmth? I hate Thor, despise him. So why am I having these feelings? I need someone to talk to and that person is Bobbi. He is my best friend, he'll know what I need to do to get these stupid thoughts out of my head. I sighed and shook my head to clear the fog and looked where I was. I recognized the familiar Oklahoma state flag flying high at the state Capitol and I slowly began flying lower to the ground to find Bobbi's house. I flew to the front door and focused my power to easily unlock the door.
"Bobbi" I whispered, silently entering the house. I shut the door behind me and winced as the noise of it locking into place echoed around the house.
"Bobbi" I said louder.
"Aceleve? oh thank god!" Bobbi yelled, running down the stairs. I smiled and ran the rest of the way and wrapped my arms around his waist.
"I've missed you" I whispered.
"Oh Ace, you have no idea how crazy I've gone worrying about you" Bobbi whispered, petting my hair. I smiled and stepped out of his embrace
"How are you? What happened when I left?" I asked.
"I'm fine, the police never found me. I hid for about a month then I came home. That's when I started to look for you. And I've gone through every recent public record but you've disappeared, the most recent thing was the closing of your coffee shop" Bobbi told me. I nodded in relief, that's all the public needed to know about Aceleve Jewl Hart.
"You shouldn't have searched for me Bobbi, I'm living in a place miles away from here" I told him.
"Where? I never want to lose you again, I can't live without my older sister" Bobbi asked. I smiled and shook my head.
"Unfortunately you cant come back with me" I whispered
"But that doesn't matter now, I need your advice" I told him, changing the subject.
"What's wrong?" Bobbi asked. He took my hand and lead me to the couch where he sat with his legs crossed. I sat beside him and pulled my knees into my chest.
"I've done a terrible thing" I began. I took a deep breath and began to tell him what happened in the garden.

*SOMETIME LATER*

I stared at Bobbi as he remained silent, thinking over the story I told him. Bobbi finally looked up and stared into my eyes.
"I don't know what to tell you Ace, you enjoyed this Thor guys kiss but your sure that you love that Loki guy. I guess the only thing to do now is hope that Thor told the truth" he told me, sadness deep in his eyes. I searched his mind, he was sad that I was having troubles, he was sad that he couldn't do anything to help and more that anything he was sad that he couldn't protect his older sister. I sighed and broke his gaze.
*"Aceleve come home, now."* Loki cheened to me. I sighed and looked back up at Bobbi.
"I'm sorry, I need to leave now" I told him.
"Okay, I'll miss you" Bobbi admitted. I nodded and stood up front the couch.
"Bobbi, don't try to look for me or contact me anymore. I won't come back. Ever" I told him. Unfortunately it sounded harsh but I didn't want my best friend to know that I helped destroy New York.
"Ace" he whispered. I shook my head and left his house without looking back. I couldn't. I have to forget this memory. I had to let go of everything important to me here on earth. They don't matter now. I took to the air and found a empty clearing. Looking into the beautiful blue sky I called to Heimdall, asking permission to return to Asguard. The portal opened and I was being taken away from my friends and home.

Hey guys so what's up! Guys. I've been writing this story for nearly a year can you believe it!!! So much drama and emotion and ugh isn't it great!? Anyway. So Ace won't have sex and Loki is mad at her, almost sounds like the typical teenage drama. Anyway. Must go, more things to write. Have fun and Allons-y and stay fantastic! :)