What Happened To Jennie Kim? // JENLISA

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JENNIE POV

After giving Lisa a bath and massaging her , I helped her get dressed.

It was hard to because her cock was hard and I knew I should've helped her but she told me Jisoo would come soon and Jisoo called me a while ago and told me she dropped my things back to my room and that my mom is cooking dinner for me.

I felt so bad leaving my mom, the only person I missed the most was my mom. I cried most nights for her , hey it doesn't matter what age you are , your mom is your mom and your emotional connection to them is untouchable.

I cried because I knew she was crying for me , I knew she was worried about me , I cried because I craved crying on her shoulder and telling her why I'm so hurt , but I closed her out. Even when she tried her best and blamed herself.

I hate myself for that. I hurt her and I'll make it up to her , she'll never have to doubt weather she's a good mother or not because my mother loves me dearly and there isn't a doubt in my heart about that. I can't wait to see her.

After Lisa and I discussed what happened in the hotel room and I hate that Jisoo and Lisa are going through this struggle because of me.

I shouldn't of dated Kai in the first place , Lisa warned me but I always thought she was being an over protective sister type.

Now I'm in love with her. How the tables change wow.

I tried to leave Kai but he nearly beat me to death that day , i recall it being in his house , I told him I didn't want to be with him after he cheated on me with Nancy.

He choked me , spat on my , kicked me , and there were times were I wouldn't come home because I knew my family would know I got beaten.

The most painful thing was hiding it from people who care about me , having to hide my tears is the worse.

I hit rock bottom after 7 months of sexual abuse from Nancy and Kai and their friends , I was told I was worthless , I couldn't handle it.

The night I tried to kill myself was when Kai finally sent the videos to Nancy. First it was him who had it and only him. He likes being the only one with power.

I knew Nancy was slightly more evil than him , so when she had the video I knew my life would have become worse.

Before Lisa came to see me at the hospital the whole group came , she choked me in my own father's hospital , slapped me and told me to stop attention seeking , I had to brace myself because Lisa walked in before Nancy got caught.

I recall Lisa being so excited about my friends being here because she thought I didn't have any. I don't have any , I only have her and Jimin and my mom I guess and if you count Jisoo.

Other than that , I really am alone , and I'm tired of feeling lonely , honestly it's the worse feeling in the world , especially when it hits you at night time , that's the times you sit and cry your eyes out , no ones there to wipe your tears and if you hear someone or if you know someone's around you have to try and quiet your sobbing , that's the worse part for me.

I remember the first time the videos were sent to me , I got in the shower and cried so loud , I knew no one can hear me because I made sure the water was on , I didn't understand why he would do that to me.

I loved Kai once upon a time , I truly did , I thought he was my Prince Charming , he acted like it , his parents are so lovely so I wondered why he would mistreat me just because I found out he cheated on me.

I'm over him cheating on me , I'm over everything , I just want to be able to sleep without the weight of the world on my shoulders.

I just want to sleep in peace , I want to be able to wake up and not be terrified for my life.

The beating , the kicking all of it , I don't want it , no one wants that , I lived truly as a slave for a whole year , i know the pain.

I didn't even want them to punish Nancy , I know how it felt to be treated like shit and for some reason it cringed me out , I just want them to leave me alone.

I just want to be happy , is that too hard to ask for.

"Hey, it's over , I'm here" My knight in shining armour says as she acknowledges me , fiddling with my fingers , something I do when I'm stressed out.

Lisa notices all these little things about me , she knows me so well , she knows my moods and she knows the right things to say. It was impossible not to fall for someone so kind and generous.

I move over to peck her lips , she looks so clean and smells so good after her shower , now she's just casually in joggers with a vest on , she's so sexy and yet she was taking risks for me. When any girl would bow down to her feet , she kisses me , takes care of me and I couldn't of asked for anything better.

God I'm so lucky , after a year of bullshit thrown at me , I was gifted with Lisa , she's a miracle in disguise , my whole life i never thought Lisa would be the one to completely sweep me off my feet.

"I'm hungry again" she groans

"Tell Jisoo to get us food"

"Fuck off , order something , I've literally driven back and forth to put your stuff in your room" Jisoo says as she storms in , she could hear our conversation?

Lucky we didn't discuss anything else & lucky I wasn't ripping Lisa's clothes for her because Lisa would of been dead by today.

I think Lisa has tolerated too much beats today.

Let her rest damn it

"Don't tell her to fuck off , you asshole , don't worry Jennie I'm ordering only US TWO FOOD" Lisa smirks and Jisoo rolls her eyes

God their friendship is adorable , I really hope I don't ruin it.

"Bitch I just need to place just one finger on your rib and you'll be crying" Jisoo shows her middle finger and Lisa does it back as she orders food for us three.