Josh has a crush on Oli but Oli seems to be everywhere yet nowhere. Kellin has memory problems and wants to hide it from everyone but that could be a problem. Vic is Josh's best friend and roommate and helps Josh keep track of Oli.
My stories are be...
Imagines of a guy with long pretty brown hair floats around in my head. I'm losing my mind. I'm really not fine. Its driving me crazy as I think about the guy.
He makes me smile but I can't think if we talked or anything. He's hot so I might just be fantasizing about someone in my past I'd never meet again. I can remember his laugh but nothing we said.
The worst thing is I cant find my notebook. I lost it yesterday.. or the other day.. or maybe farther back. I dont know. But I don't know where it is so I've been locked in my room the whole time. I'm pretty sure.
Each day is hazy and things I did that I remember and scattered and vague. Sometimes I halfway forget things and other times they are erased from my mind completely. Things come in go but my dog has been one thing I can kinda remember.
I look at her and frown. What's her name? I have another thought swimming my room but I can't process it. I look at my phone hoping to see a message from me. Its 2pm on an April day. What am I forgetting- well- besides everything.
Fuck it, I'm going out. Let's just hope I dont see anyone or get lost. I walk out my room and fix my outfit a little. I hope nobody makes any rude comments about my outfit... I wasn't planning on going out.
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I dont normally wear skirts but.. I felt like it. I don't even think anyone at college has seen me wearing a skirt. They've seen me with overalls and hippy clothes but this is new.
As I walk down the hallway I take a few wrong turns and walk in random directions. I stay calm because I'm not alone, I have Cope. When I see a person I realize I need directions out.
I approach the guy I've never seen before and he looks at me getting up from my floor. It seems like he got locked out of his room. "Hi, um, could you please take me out of this dorm building? I've seemed to loose my way," I say smiling trying to seem normal and not like I'm comply lost.
"O-oh? Um.. are you sure?" He says stuttering in his British accent. That seems a little fimmiler?
"Yeah, sorry. I know I'm just a stranger and you have better things to do but I'm.. I'm lost," I admit really wanting him to stop looking at me so weird and just help me.
"Um.. okay?" He says and looks at my skirt. I blush and he then follow him when he starts walking. "Are you okay?" He asks and I feel nervous. Does he know me? Did I make an mistake by calling myself a stranger?
"Yeah," I say shortly.
He stops and looks at me. I blink and mess with my messy hair. I need to wash it, and my body. I probably skipped to many days.. its just hard to remember things like that..
"What's wrong with you?" He asks me and I frown and take a step back. He knows me. I should leave- he grabs my wrist and pins me again the wall. "No, you're not running. Every time I've seen you you've seemed like you didn't remember me. Especially yesterday and today. I apologized, but you dont even look like you remember me," he says and I feel my body shake.
"I'm sorry, I dont remember who you are. Please let go it hurts," I say frantically feeling him grip my wrists. He signs and drops my wrists but grab my hips so I dont run.
"Ugh, okay. Something is wrong with you. Can you just explain it? Like, fuck! Am I THAT forgettable?" He asks seeming really hurt and upset by this.
"Can you keep it a secret?" I ask and he nods really wanting to hear it.
"I have memory problems and my brain refreshes randomly and.. i.. just dont remember people... I dont know who you are or why this is important and I'm sorry but I need this to stay in between us," I mumble and he looks surprised.
The surprised face goes into realization and then guilt. "Oh.. oh fuck.. so you did remember me that day- I was just some stranger?" He says and I dont follow.
"I don't know what you're talking about but yeah, everytime I see someone it's like the first time," I say and he let's go of me but I dont run. He looks upset.
"Will you remember?" He asks and I shrug.
"Okay.. well.. if I wrote something and gave it to you would that help any? Like could you read a note from a stranger would that be okay?" He asks and I nod a little.
"If you write something and give it to me I'd probably be confused but it would help," I say and he gives me a sad smile.
He continues to walk and I follow. "You look nice in that.. and I know you dont remember what I did but I'm sorry. I didn't realize how that must have been confusing," he says and something deep in me makes me feel a little better. Less stressed. Like I wanted him to apologize.
"I accept your apology, and thanks for taking me here," I say and wave bye and walk out of the dorm building with my dog. That was nice... well.. mostly.
Oli's pov
Memory loss.. That explains so much. I watch kellin walk away. That skirt looks good on him but he's off the menu. I feel so bad.. physically and mentally. Both from drugs and the new information I learned.
He didn't even know who I was and I more or less tricked him into sleeping with me. I thought he was into it but that explains why he seemed confused..
I thought he was just confused about why I wanted him or something and all the drugs blocked me from stopping and asking why he was quiet. He didn't look like he was being raped. He didn't tell me to stop and I did get him off..
But after we were done he said very faintly 'interesting' like he just woke up from a dream. Or like he had no idea why he was there with me... At the time I just thought he meant he's never been fucked like that..
My high is almost completely gone from earlier and I'm at my crashing point. I need to go sleep or take something..
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