Room To Breath

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Lol it's not even 8pm yet

Oliver's pov

When Josh comes back I say bye to Aswten and get up. "Fish wants to see you," Josh tells him. Awsten gets up and we separate.

I wrap my arm around josh and rest my right hand on his right hip. His left hand is on my back lightly holding my shirt. We are headed for my room. The past three days have been going good. I've been opening up and it.. it makes me feel better.

We haven't discussed my family but we've talked a lot of my drug problem, myself, and some stuff. He's made me realize that I'm human. And humans have emotions. It's not a lot and I still don't believe I should cry but it's slow helping me understand stuff.

I'm not anti depressants and something to help with my night terrors. Having sleep and not being so stung out makes my mind easier to deal with. I feel like I'm still broken but it's less stressful. Having Josh by my side makes me more comfortable here, I dont really dislike it here.

I open the door for him and he walks in. I shut the door behind us and he sits on my bed. He's being quiet, he must be thinking about something. "You look pretty.. as always," I say and he smiles.

"I'm not wearing makeup, are you sure?" He says and I come over in front of him. I pick up his soft hands and he blushes.

"You look beautiful, you look good every way," I say and he blushes more. Josh lays down with his feet on the ground. His white pants are thin, I can see the outline of his underwear from the back. It's not that noticeable but my eyes were paying attention to detail of his ass.

I cant see it through the front. Sadly. I think they are white or a light color because I would be able to see them if they we dark. I sit on the bed next to him and I play with his hair. His eyes are shut and he seems tired.

"You okay love?" I ask and he opens his eyes and looks at me. He turns over getting all the way on the bed and crawling into my lap. I'm sitting crisscrossed so he puts his chest in my lap and rests his face where my thigh that meets my hip.

My eyes go to his ass and I get an idea. Its possible a bad idea. However I want to see his reaction and his ass is nice. I slap his ass and it jiggles and he gasps and sits up and looks at me with a red surprised face.

Worth it.

"W-why did you just d-do that?" He stutters and I chuckle a little.

"You have a nice ass," I say and he pouts.

He lays down and but puts his hands on his ass hoping to protect it. "I wont slap it," I tell him. Hesitantly he puts his arms around my waist and relaxes.

My eyes look over his ass, I can see the outline of his underwear again. He's wheeling girl underwear.  "Is girl underwear comfortable?" I ask and he makes a muffled noise that I think means yes. I put my hands on his ass and he flinches for a moment.

"What are you doing?" He mumbles not moving. I squeeze and smile a little. He's thick but he's not fat. But hes not a stick. Hes the perfect weight.

"Nothing, just deal with it," I mumble and he huffs. My hands go lower to the back of his thighs and I grip them and let my hands go dangerously close to the inside of his thighs high up close to his ass.

"I would say 'fun to play with not to eat'" I say like the play dough commercial. "But I'd eat your ass," I and he turns around and looks up at me curiously. I start playing with his thighs since I have no access to his ass anymore.

"Eat?" He says making a worried face. Oh my god his pure innocent mind kills me. Is it bad if I explain this to him?

"Its a sexual thing.. like, it feels good. Um, so like, its pretty much like kissing except my my tongue would go inside of you as-"

"Okokok shhhhh I dont need to know more," he squeals out. His face is bright red and has been this whole time. "O-oh," he says and then turns around again and hides his face in my thigh. Oh? What did he realize?

"Why are you so quiet?" I say and then put my hands on his ass. I like playing with it.

"Because I'm thinking," he mumbles and it muffles against my leg.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I ask and he doesn't answer for a moment. Is something wrong?

"Yes and no.." he mumbles.

"Let's talk about it," I say knowing he might just need a push so he can talk about it. He sighs and sits up. He grabs the pillow and puts it in his lap rather quickly. Awww did I turn him on? Hes so cute.

Honestly he doesn't have to hide his boner, I'm not going to do anything if he doesn't want it. "Do you like me? And like.. um.. would you ever see yourself d-dating me?" He asks nervously.

I just need to be honest and hope he understands.. I dont want to hurt his feelings. "I like you. And um.. that's hard to say. I think yes but I've never dated anyone and I feel like I'd be a bad boyfriend right now because im.. im...  going through stuff.. but I do like you and I'm trying to get better so I can comfortably say yes to that question," I say and I feel bad I cant just say yes.

When he doesn't say anything I look up scared I'll see him upset. However hes smiling.  "So you do like me enough to date me but it's just too soon and you're not ready?" He says and I nod.

"That's really nice to hear. I.. um.. I halfway through you didn't like me very much," he says and I playfully roll my eyes.

"I dont like getting wet- sappy, but you're the first person I've ever liked," I say and he blushed. Then he looks a bit confused.

"What about when you.. um.. lost your virginity?" He asks and I shrug a little.

"I uh, a guy invited me to a party when I was 14 he gave me lots of alcohol and yeah.. I woke up in his bed naked with no memory of it. Not really the best way to lose it but I cant change the past," I say and he frowns.

He then leans in and gives me a hug. "You deserve better," he tells me and I smile. He's so sweet.. it's easy to talk to him..

Bro I'm taking a bath as I write this and a misquote hawk tried to land on me..

Theories?

Thoughts?

Poor kellin.. oli needs to hurry up and get better so josh and him can go visit kellin before the month is over before they are going to take him off of life support

Hhhhh