Room To Breath

bro im lazy 42

Josh's pov

When we walk into the building I look at Oli. He's looking at the man behind the counter, theres not to much to look at in this first room. Throw the double doors it's less plain.

I try to look confident as we go up to him still holding hands. "I'm josh franceschi, Its my first day working here and this is Oliver Sykes. I talk to Elissa about everything," I say softly. Not because I'm that nervous anymore but just because that's how I talk.

"Okay sigh-"

"I already sighed everything, yesterday and then even today, you weren't here. Matty was," I interrupt him. Okay I might have done that because I am nervous. I came here a few hours ago and got everything in order. All I'm supposed to do is walk in.

Oli chuckles as the guy gives me a look that tells me he doesn't like me. Matty walks in and I smile. "Matttyyyy! I'm here!" I squeal a little dragging oli to matty and hug matty making Oli look awkward.

"Hey josh, is this the ho-"

"Yeah this is the guy. When I'm not here you have to hang out when him and make sure he's comfortable and not oh my gosh I haven't seen you in forever," I rush out stepping back and into Oli on accident making me laugh.

"As bubbly as always I see," he says and then looks at Oli. "I'm matty, Its nice to meet you. I'll show you to your room?" He says and they shake hands. I'm holding his left hand so it doesn't make anything awkward. I dont think.

Oli doesn't seem nervous anymore but he does seem a bit agitated. We nod and follow matty. Oli gives me a questioning look but I dont know what he's asking. We walk through the doors and I see the lounge room.

Couches, chairs, TVs, tables, and big windows make it seem comfortable. Oli looks around and I blush at our hands. Our hands are sweaty. I'm not sure if it's me, him, or both of us but I let go and wipe my hand. He blushes and does the same. I smile when we link hands again without question or worry.

"Sorry," he whispers.

"Its okay," I giggle and we walk through the place to the hallways. The floor is white tile white the walls are light gray like the furniture. Theres patients and helpers but they are pretty respectful and dont stare at us.

When we get to his room matty give me a master key and tells me that I can help him settle in and for today all I have to do is help Oli and if I see anyone who needs help to of course help. "Thanks, can we talk later? I wanna talk about uh.. the last time I saw you- not this morning," I say to matty and he nods a little before looking at the time.

"I leave at 3, meet me in the garden?" He says and I nods and shoves him out of the room gently.

"Okay bye," I say shutting the door and then fix my skirt. When I look at oli he's looking annoyed? "This place is pretty cool, well, the people are cool and the fact you dont have to worry about anything other than yourself is cool too," I say not wanting to explain why I want to meet up with Matty.

I cross my ankles and lean against the door. He sits on his bed. I talked to them enough to get him a single bedroom. "You wont don't want to get sexual with me before you like matty," he blurts out and I look at him with wide eyes. Me and matty?

"N-no? Me and him grew up with each other. He doesn't like me," I stutter out feeling nervous. Why is he bringing this up? He wants to do something sexual with me? I mean, I now he's into sexual stuff but was he serious about asking for a blowjob?

My face heats up and he doesn't like like he believes me. I dont know what else to say. I dont like Matty, he's like my brother. I don't do sexual stuff..

Ever.

I grew up in a home that we all hang out on the living room or outside unless it was time to sleep or in the bathroom. Our doors didn't have locks and our walls were thin. At night my parents would check on us and there was no privacy. Sooo.. I never really.. um..

Experimented?

It's just to embarrassing and over since I never got into it I think it's not important or anything. Plus I'm in a dorm room, it's not like I'll try with the chance of Vic walking in.

Its just not important. People say all guys touch themselves but.. um.. I dont. With a red face I look down at my feet as Oli watches me. I hope he cant read minds.

"Okay, if it's not becoming of a crush on someone or an ex.. why? Sex is fun, when we kissed you got hard so I know you are sexually attracted to me," he says and I blush even more. I bite my lip and he looks almost mad? I'm confused.

"Um.. I dont want to?" I say and then the anger or whatever he was feeling disappears and then he looks sad. Shit that sounds like I'm rejecting him. Oliver is my crush- that's not the right word. I love him. I'm willing to do sexual stuff with him but not before I know he likes me and not before we are dating.

"Oh.." he says softly.

"No I w-want to just not- um- ollliii, dont be upset. I like you okay? I'm just not into sexual stuff like you are," I blush and spit out trying to make him not upset but not give him false hope.

Now he just looks confused..

"So you do like me.. but you dont like kissing or fucking?" He tries.

"I-I like kissing, but, um, kinda?" I stutter feeling my face burning. My face must be so red. He thinks for a moment. His eyes go to my legs and skirt. I mess with my fingers and bit my lip.

"Prove it," he says and I feel confused. Prove what? That I dont want sex? He stands up and I uncross my ankles and by this time he's all. The way up to me and in my personal space. He smirks and lifts my chin so I'm looking at him.

"Let's kiss," he says and I blush more. I'm not against kissing. I just hope that I dont get a boner. I hate getting hard waiting for it to go down is so annoying.

"Okay," I say and his lips lock with mine. My heart flutter as this happens and he grabs my hips and I grab onto his shit.

I love this..

Thoughts?

Matty?

Oli?

Josh?

Kellic?