Room To Breath

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Josh's pov

Oli pouts and gives me a look. These look isn't just some meaningless pout it screams 'please dont leave me alone when we are in here or I might cry'. That's how I take it anymore. Yesterday me and oli hung out but it was pretty awkward after our kiss.

The kiss didn't make it awkward,  no the fact that I got a boner and then hid in the bathroom for hours did the trick. I'm still embarrassed about that. My first kiss ever and I go and get hard. I count it as my first kiss because my first kiss was with my best friend who was a girl. Was a girl? I said that wrong- I thought that wrong. Was my friend, is a girl. Did I fix that?

Why do I need to fix it I knew what I was talking about. It's not like anyone can read my mind. I would embarrass myself so much more because I think about girly things like clothes, oli, gossip, friends, movies, shopping, how I'm going to paint my nails, flower crowns. Anything and everything.

"I'm staying until 6 and then I have to go home. But until then I'll stay by you as much as possible," I say and he looks at the building with a glare. We are in my car about to go into the rehab hospital thing. Today is my first day back working and Oliver's first day checking in.

My sister was very understanding so I'm pretty free to do what I want with my schedule and stuff like that. I'll be working every day around my classes so I can still get plenty of sleep, studying, with my classes and be able to work.

I'm wearing a skirt- yeah I know, it's new. I've never worn a skirt outside of my home so this is a bit stressful. Oli gave me confidence because when I walked into his room to pick him up he immediately started to smile and look at it. He said I looked pretty in it and of course I thanked him and then we walked out. That leads us to here.

I'm nervous how the people here will react to it. Most- not most- half of these people know me. It was only a few months ago that I worked here. I look at the black skirt that is a little flowy but it's made out a heavy material so it's not just going to blow up in the wind. My shirt is a light blue crop top but you cant see my stomach because it's a high waisted skirt.

"Fuck it, let's go," Oliver's voice drags me from my thoughts so I look up at the guy who is now shutting the door behind him and walking to my side. He opens my door making me quickly unbuckle and get out. I shouldn't be the nervous one.

Oli is about to start walking off to the building but then he looks at me. His eyes flicker to my hands that are pulls my skirt farther down and me teeth that are gnawing on my bottom lip. Then to my feet to see me crossing my ankles.

Im scared and I kinda want to go back home. "Why are you nervous? I'm the one being left here when you leave," he says in a tone that let's me know he doesn't understand at all. He seems nervous but his reaction is 'let's get this done'.

"I've never worn a skirt... in public.. and new jobs are scary," I whisper looking away. His tough features soften and he grabs my hand.

"You look hot, and I'll be here with you," he says and starts walking. I stumble for a split second because of my crossed ankles but then start walking with him. I take a deep breath in.

Let's hope this all goes smoothly..

Thoughts?

Theories?

Oops sorry for not updating so much. Tomorrow I wont update either and idk about today, like, how much I will. This is a short chapter. But hehehe you're about to see just how innocent josh is.