Room To Breath

chapter thirty six

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Josh's pov

When I'm allowed I walk into Oliver's room with big eyes. My eyes go straight to Oli as soon as I open the door. He's got his gown off and blankets up to his lower stomach.

Oh.. he is very sexy...

Oh? I was plenty aware of how sexy and hot he is but that doesn't change the fact that my face heats up and my perverted eyes flicker to his v line. He looks a bit bored or just done with life. I cant read minds but I can guess that he's thinking of when he can leave and get high.

I hope he doesn't want to get high.. "so you stayed here regularly and slept next to me for all this time?" He asks looking at me with no emotion. My checks flush more. It's very easy to make me blush..

"Yeah, a lot of people visit but only me, ronnie, and Vic spend the night but both Vic and Ronnie are home because Ronnie is with Andy and Vic is... oh, I forgot who he's with," I say and he looks to have mixed feelings about what I said.

"That's cute you stay.. but.. why?" He says and scratches his arm. I sit on the edge of his bed and smile a little. This is a little embarrassing for me, like, he knows I spent so much time watching him sleep.

"Um, because I um.. we didn't want you to be alone or wake up alone," I say and he let's out a tired sigh. He seems exhausted.

"Josh.. um.. it's not really important but I dont want to see An-" Oli is cut off by the door opening. He frowns a little when Ronnie and Andy walk in.

Ronnie looks tired but really happy while Andy looks like he is being sent to detention. Andy goes to the chair on the farthest side of the room and Ronnie comes over and reaches over me and they hug.

"Its good to see you awake, I missed you," Ronnie says and pulls away. Oli looks really uncomfortable and upset. Ronnie looks over at Andy and frowns a little.

"He's sorry.." Ronnie whispers and Oli rolls his eye.

"I dont want him here," oli says not whispers. He doesn't care if he hurts Andy's feelings. They had sex.. why is Oliver so bitter towards him?

"I'll wait in the car," Andy says looking at the floor as he walks away. Ronnie frowns but nods.

"You should talk to him about.. the thing, I'm going to go. I just wanted to see you and tell you that we all are happy to have you back," Ronnie says and ruffles Oli's hair.

"Thanks, I didn't expect you guys would actually visit me.. it's kinda weird," Oli says and I see his face go a shade red.

"I'll visit you in the morning and I'll bring breakfast," Ronnie says and leave after we say our byes. Once we are alone I look at oli to see he's looking at his hands that are on his lap.

He seems sad and out of it. Maybe he's just sad because he missed a month of his life. I scoot back and sideways so om sitting next to him. "Are you okay?" I ask and he doesn't move or answer for a little while.

"Yeah sure, I just need to get high," he whispers still not looking at me.

"About that.. um.. I was thinking- we all are thinking you should get some professional help. Theres a rehab place nearby and I actually helped out around there and I can say it's very friendly and not like those scary white roomed places.. you should go," I say and he looks at me sadly.

"Maybe.. how long is the program thing..?" He whispers.

"A week in the place and then they do a little test and then you either get another week or they give you therapy depending on how you are. My friend went there and he stayed two weeks and then every Tuesday he goes to therapy and he says it helps and he's glad he went," I explain and he looks at me and frowns a little.

"Changing the topic: you know how when you sleep and then wake up you remember you had a dream but you don't remember it at all? That's how I feel right now.. that and other stupid emotions," he mumbles the last part.

I really hope he goes to rehab, he doesn't seem excited for it but he doesn't seem like he's against it. He just needs some time to think about it. A nurse said he's going to stay here for one more night so he has time to think about it.

"Yeah, its annoying. Both not remembering and emotions.. Not to seem like a cry baby but I cried so many times this month, its has to be a new record for me because I dont cry a lot.. normally," I say and force out a little laugh.

Oli looks at me weirdly but doesn't say anything at first. He thinks hard on something and then looks at my lips briefly before looking away. I lean my head on his shoulder and my eyes look at his v line again. My face blushes and I turn and put my eyes on his neck. Of course I close my eyes before I did this.

Oliver's arms go around my waist and he makes me move and I straddle him. I only did it because if I didn't corporate as he tried to move me I'd end up falling off the bed. I keep my face in his neck and my hand rest on his chest. My fingertips lightly touching his sexy collarbones.

"This is comfortable," he says slurring a little like he's sleepy.

"Yeah, it's way more comfortable than that chair I was sleeping on," I mumble still feeling the pain in my neck. He hums and arm relax a little. I lay down on his more so my chest is against his as he lays against the hospital bed that's in more of a chair position.

He presses the button that makes the bed start to flatten and we go with it so we are laying and I'm on top of the naked guy. If this blanket moves I'll have a heart attack, I swear.

"It might seem weird since I've been asleep for so long but I'm so tired," he says.

"Can I sleep with you or should I go back to the chair?" I ask about to get up. He grabs my hips and looks me in the eyes.

"Sleep with me, you're comfortable," he says and I blush. I cant get under the blankets, he's naked. I blush and he seems to realize.

"The nurse said theres pajamas at the gift shop, either you go get some or just forget about it and get under the blankets. You do have pants on so it's not like we are both naked," he says with a smirk.

"I- I'll get some," I say nervously about to get off of him.

"Nah, I'm tired and dont feel like waiting," he says pushing the blankets down and then my perverted eyes go straight to his lower body and my face lights up red.  I imminently loot at his eyes to see him smirking at me.

"Lay down, " he says and I do very shyly and he pulls the blankets up and turns on his side. He grabs my stiff body and pulls me to him.

"Oh calm down, it's not like you've never slept with someone naked after sex," he says and instead of telling him I haven't and I've only saw a naked guy once and that's because I've walked in on Vic changing a few times. I turn away from him and let him spoon me.

I have on my long sleeved and pants pajamas so it's not like I can feel to much. "G-good night," I say and he mumbles a good night before we both fall asleep.

Thoughts?

Bro.. I've wrote a lot of this story so far.

What do you think about Oli?

Heheh both forgot about kellin again

I want flaming cheetos, hot frys, and talkies right now *pouts*

So like.. it's never going to say it so I'd just say it now. Cope (kellins dog) is okay. She's not out on a road lost or dead or anything.

I got a question, do you want me to continue writing this bc I'm on a streak and it's easy or do you want me to pick back up on Pull the Trigger Bitch? I dont want you guys to forget about it and when I start writing it you guys not be as interested in it.. vote

Pull The Trigger Bitch?

Or

Room To Breath?