Room To Breath

chapter eight

Josh pov

I really need to mind my own business. As I sit in class I steal glances at the sleeping guy. He seems so distant...

Its been a few weeks since he came to my room with Ronnie and he just seems to get more and more drained; tired. We've share a few words but nothing real. Just a few good morning's and a couple of eye glances when the teacher does something strange or funny. Well, if oli sees. Usually he misses it because he's sleeping.

I want to think he's okay. That maybe he's just sleepy. He scratches his arms and neck a lot, he's twitchy, and he's at an unhealthy weight. Those are drug signs.. Theres more: when he's awake he's either really pissed off or dazed.

When class is let out he gets up and starts leaving so I take a chance and go up to lover boy. Apparently he gets around a lot. As soon as we are outside he's pulling out a pack of cigarettes.

"That's not healthy," I whisper fixing the flower crown on my head. He looks at me and scoffs. His messy brown hair blows in the wind and he rolls his eyes and starts trying to light the cigarette. The flame keeps putting out his lighter because he can light it.

He should poison his body so much. He looks at the wind with a glare and then looks at me and I see his dull eyes widen a tiny seemly getting an idea. He grabs my shoulder and stops walking forcing me to stop.

He then gets on the other side of me ignoring my confused look. He then crouches a little and uses me to block the wind. Once it's lit he stands up straight and blows smoke in my face making me cough. He smirks when I wave it away. It was a unnecessary movement because the wind took care of it but it was just a reaction.

"Why are you talking to me? I'm not good for ya," he says and I roll my eyes.

"I don't like you, I just wanted to see if you were okay," I mumble trying to not let him see my crush. He'd probably just try to have sex with me and use my crush against me or something. I mean.. probably not but I don't know him.

"Hmm," he hums and then doesn't answer any more.

Instead of going to my dorm and getting in my warm room I follow Oli to the gazebo. We don't talk, I'm to shy to break this sad gloomy atmosphere.

"Are you okay?" I whisper because my voice wont work right. It feels not strong enough to talk load. He looks at me and sighs sadly.

"Yup," he says flicking his cigarette away. "I'm dandy," he adds and looks at the pack of cigarettes in his hand.

"Wanna make out?" He asks with a laugh.

I frown and back up. His laugh fades seeing my rejection. He looks away seeming upset I turn away and walk away from him. Once I'm farther I look back to see him now sitting with his face in his hands.

I'm not just going to make out with him. I'm not like that. As I walk around I see Vic seeming in deep in thought as he walks down a sidewalk. I cut across the grass and catch up to my friend.

He looks up and smiles sadly. Why is everyone so sad? "Hows is going?" I ask and he shrugs.

"Nobody seems right for me, I just want a boyfriend I can take care of," he says with a shrug.

"What about Ronnie?" I ask. I dont know exactly what's happening in between them but I know its sexual but neither of them like each other romantically.

Ronnie like Andy but Andy is dating Danny so it seems a bit complicated. He shrugs and then looks at the horizon. We both see someone in the distance trying to catch a butterfly.

"Who is-" a hard thud cuts him off and I stop walking and look at Vic who has a face full of pole. He walked straight into a light pole. I start laughing at him and he pouts.

I continue laughing at him it sounded so funny. Like if it was text it would have been 'who isaughhgh' like he key smashed but it was sound. He laughs and then he walks around the poll and we start walking around laughing at his silliness.

He's kinda a airhead sometimes but I know that's only part of him he's also really caring and has had his dark days.  

The thoughts of before vanish and we start talking about how clumsy we can be. I bring out lots of times he's tripped, fell, or smack into things. While he brings up times I've gotten stuck in clothes, mispronounced words, said funny things, and tripped. We both are really clumsy.

XD

Soooooo

Hhhhhhhhh

How is this story going?

Do you think josh should have stayed with Oli?

That's oli before he got his butt tattoo right?