Lyra

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Lyra

I put my hoops on and spray of perfume on before taking a look at myself in the mirror. I send a picture to Eric and Minji before hearing Mercedes come in. I grab my phone charger and keys and we both head to my car.

The drive to the arena was almost two hours. The entire time Mercedes was talking about how excited she was and how she hoped that either Namjoon or Yoongi would notice her though she honestly wanted all seven of them to notice her. I tune her out as I start to think about all of the possibilities that could potentially happen at the concert. They could see me and not care, they might not even recognize me, they might be mad or maybe even be happy. There were so many thoughts in my head I honestly didn't even hear Mercedes call my name until she tapped by arm.

"Yes?" I ask and she motions in front of her.

"We're here."

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The place was packed. Many people of different ages and ethnicities were here speaking with much excitement as we waited for the concert to start. Mercedes as touching up her hair and makeup before turning to me.

"How do I look?" She asks before frowning.

"Lyra what's been on your mind? You've been out of it for the longest." She says and I shake my head.

"Nothing. It's fine." I respond and she opens her mouth to speak when it starts.

The arena was loud and the music was blaring. Once I saw all of them my heart broke. They looked so happy as they performed. I feel my anxiety run wild as all of my memories came rushing back to me at once. When I first met Jimin, when I first met the others, when Yoongi and Hoseok helped me with the perverted store clerk. When I first met Taehyung.

My breathing quickens and I start to feel lightheaded. I felt like I was being suffocated and closed in and that's when we made eye contact. It was like the whole arena went silent and the time stopped as we both freeze. I tear my gaze from Taehyung and feel tears stream down my face as I quickly move out of the isle and out the main arena, quickly telling Mercedes to not follow me.

I rush to the nearest women's restroom and lean over the sink and cry. My breathing was heavy and I could barely gain air due to my nose stopping up. The pain and heartbreak of his last words to me hit me dead on from the moment we made eye contact. I knew coming here was a bad idea and it's too late to back out now.

I try to calm down and regulate my breathing and wipe my tears. I brought wipes and my makeup knowing I was going to cry. I clean and fix my makeup. I continue to regulate my breathing and calm down. I decide to stay in the bathroom until I felt ready to go back out there.

I ignore Mercedes questions on why I left crying and just told her to enjoy herself and that I wasn't here for me but for her. I avoid eye contact on stage at all cost and just bobbed my head to the beat. Once the concert was over, Mercedes and I head to get some merchandise.

While I was sitting down trying to fold a shirt I bought one of the staff members walk up to me. I look up at him and stand up.

"Ma'am can you follow me." He says and I look at him confused.

"I am my friend's ride. I can't leave her here by herself." I say and Mercedes walks over to us.

"You two follow me." He says and starts to walk off.

We give each other a look before following him. As we walk back to the arena, he tells Mercedes to stay at the entrance of the back stage. I give her my things and follow the man backstage. I already knew what was going to happen. My heart starts to speed up as I walk further and further. I was lead to a dressing room and he knocks on the door. It took a moment but once the door opened, my heart stops.

I wasn't even in the room when I was engulfed in a huge bear hug. I just stand there, tears flowing as Taehyung cries into my neck. The feeling of confusion and heartbreak press down on my chest as I continue to stand there not knowing whether to hug him back and comfort him and to just let him have his moment.

"I'm so sorry Lyra. I shouldn't have ever said that to you. I should have just listened and I would have understood what really happened that night. I was just so angry that I assumed." He sobs and I wrap my arms around him.

"Please forgive me. You'll always be my little sister, blood or not. I messed up I know but please forgive me." He sobs and I close my eyes and rub his back.

"I forgive you, Taehyung."