Suicide - gd

Chapter 21

I stood over him. A knife was in my hands and crimson red laced the sharp blade.

What have I done? Is he dead?

I didn't move . I couldn't pull myself away but I didn't feel sad or regret . I started to laugh and I couldn't stop. I was standing over Justin's dead body and-

"Grayson?" I was shook lightly out of my dream and Louisa smiled at me.

"You were sweating so I wanted to see if you were okay."

"I'm fine honestly baby girl."

The counter buzzed and the phone lit up. It was her mom.
I looked at her as she ignored it and looked back at me.

"Lou it might be important." I say looking back at her phone.

"Fine." She scoweled and picked up the phone proceeding to speak.

Louisa's pov

"Hi is this ___ 's daughter?"
"Um yeah? Who are you?"
"I'm gonna need you to come down to the station and collect your mothers belongings."
"Station what do you mean. Why?"
"Have you not been told?"
"Well obviously not."
"I'm really sorry to tell you this but your mother was found in the deliry river last night after her car had been parked on the bridge several days."

I couldn't believe the woman speaking to me but I deep inside I knew it was true.
The line was quiet until she started again,

"So if you would like to come get your-"

I hung up the phone a chucked it across the room
"Lou." Grayson didn't know what was wrong but he hugged me anyway and tightly like he really meant it.

"Gray this is my fault. This is fucking fault." My sobs turned into anger and then regret and pain.

Why .

Short update today because it's 1am and I'm tired after so sorry I'll try better lmao anyway I have gd ideas for the ending of this even tho it won't be for a while ;)