Suicide - gd

Chapter 8

My eyes were dreary and red as they adapted to the light that beamed through my window. I reached for phone as a reminder popped up on the screen. As my eyes strained due to the brightness I could read;

Reminder today
Visit Louisa in hospital

Oh god. I completely forgot ! I leaped out of bed a reached for any top I touched first and threw it on. I was already wearing my jeans from yesterday. I grabbed my phone and keys and ran to the car that had been poorly parked.

I'm coming Louisa. I mumbled , knowing she wouldn't of heard.

At the hospital
I slammed the car door without a second thought and rushed into the hospital. I was 15 minuets late but that wasn't gonna stop me.

I looked around as my eyes grazed unfamiliar faces everywhere until I recognised the girl at reception from yesterday. I saw her glance up but quickly look back down again at the sight of me speed walking towards her.

"Can I help you sir-"
"Dolan"
"Here for.."
"Louisa"
"Sir your 20 minuets late." She replied as though she was ready for me to get angry.
"I don't give a fuck if I'm a Minuit or day late , im coming to see her so piss off back to your computer and leave me be." And with hat I stormed past hearing distant callings for me behind me.

I pushed open the door as Louisa lay asleep on the bed. It pained me to see her hooked up with so many wires. I sat down next to her and curressed her cheek as I brushed her hair behind her ear.

30 minutes later
I didn't realise someone could make me so upset until now. I had dry tear streaks down my face and I just stared at her holding her hand sitting on the side of her bed. She was affecting me too much to handle and I just wanted to see her smile , even if it is a bit damaged.

I let my eyes daze through the window as the silent room around me lay lifeless. Until a whisper broke the silence and my head whipped around to face Louisa.

"G-Grayson?" She furrowed her brows softly as I smiled.
"Lou your awake!" I exclaimed , struggling to contain myself.
"Why are you-"
Before she could finish I got closer and attached my lips hers. I could taste blood from the cut on her lip but that didn't bother me in the moment. For a second she kissed back , we fit like a puzzle as our lips moved in sync.

But suddenly Louisa pushed me away.
"Grayson! What are you doing!" She exclaimed , a hint of her fragile voice still peaking through.
"I- uh." I mumbled as Panic rushes my body. What was I doing. I just tried to kiss a girl I've been counselling that I met a few days ago. What is wrong with me.

"Um I think you should go." Louisa said as she turned away to face the window.
"I'm-I'm so sorry Louisa . Please let-"
"Just go Grayson!" Her voice was scratchy but I could hear her sobs through her voice.

Louisa's pov
Grayson looked down and I could feel my heart literally shatter before me. As he shut the door slowly I could see him run out to the car park as soon as he thought I wasn't looking.

My eyes flooded with salty water and the tears that clutches my eyelashes before ran quickly down my cheek , followed by many others.

I wanted him.

But I couldn't . It's wrong. He's my counsellor . I don't even know him.

I did the right thing. For my self but not my heart.

So sorry for not updating in forever. I disable my fan acc for a while and I'm still not sure whether to keep it , but I wanna keep my Wattpad still n read n write on here. My fan accs @/blestgrayson so give it a follow if u want idm. But Yh enjoy this chapter even tho it's not the longest.
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