Suicide - gd

Chapter 1

*This book will include sad scenes so if you are not in a good place right now , I advice not to read.*

Louisa
As I sat at my desk , I couldn't help but start dozing off. Languages was so boring and I would do anything to get away from it.

I stared out the windows, my eyes following birds as they sailed through the sky. I never listened in languages and I wasn't planning on using it anyway so what's the point?

My head rested on my hand as I lost all interest in what miss was saying until I noticed myself being nudged by the random girl I sit next to.

Immediately , my head swivelled around to be face to face with the teacher . She started shouting at me in a different language. Of course , I had no idea what she was saying.

As I continued to repeat "what?" She got louder and pointed at the board like she was helping me. I'm sorry but pointing at a board that had even more jumbled words my brain didn't understand does NOT help me in any way.

I started yelling at the teacher . She was pissing me off . I'm obviously not understanding so why the hell does she continue to talk to me in some random language?

I lost it . I started threatening her . It's not my fault she was being like this. She deserved it. When I was done , the whole class just stared at me.
"OUT" miss yelled. Finally something I understand.
"Willingly" I replied pushing my desk away and walking out the class.

It was obvious miss wanted me to wait outside until someone came and got me  but I'm not about to spend another second in this hell hole. I walked through the hallways of the school, reading posters as I walked past them. I never noticed them before. They were mainly about competitions and events that I literally couldn't care less about.

I dogged all of the teachers I passed on the way to reception but as I reached the front gates, I heard someone clearing their throat behind me. I rolled my eyes and reluctantly turned around.

"Yes?" I fake smiled. I was faced with mr.trueman . Great . The headmaster.
"Where do you think your going young lady?" He scoffed , knowing exactly what I was planning to do before he ruined it.

I shrugged in reply.
"Follow me." He turned around a started walking towards the behaviour room. It was basically my second home - I went there often. Usually id just sit there alone "calming down".

As we entered the room we sat down opposite each other . This was different . Usually I would sit alone but today I was joined by mr.trueman.

A few minutes later he started talking,
"So Louise." He began.
"Lately your behaviour has not been at its best . At this school we push our students to be the best they can be and right now , you are not demonstrating that. In result of this, we have got you a councillor. He will help you deal with your emotions and control them. And soon we will hopefully see the Louise we have been needing this whole time ! He will come everyday after school at 4 o clock to your house . He is Grayson Dolan but will be called mr.dolan to you okay? Now go get back to class."

A councillor ? Really ?! Like that's gonna help ! Sometimes I just have to express my feelings. I had nothing else to say so I got up and left. I wasn't about to go back into class so I headed for the gates and walked home.

At home

No one is ever home . My mum died in a car accident and my dad works away. The only times he is back is sundays every other week.

I kicked off my shoes and went to my room . A councillor . Wow . I looked at my phone and it displayed '14.00' . I had two hours before mr.dolan came. I don't want to talk about my feelings.

I'm not certain but I'm pretty sure I'm depressed . I barely ever see my family and I don't really have friends . I lost them all last year when I told them they were all fake - which they were. I often thought about suicide but I wasn't about to tell anyone that.

4 o clock

I heard a knock at the door and checked my phone. Crap !! It's 4 o clock and I'm not even changed . I quickly threw on some booty shorts (because why not) and a hoodie.

As I rushed down the stairs I heard the doorbell ring again , in sing with my voice ,
"Comming!" When I reached the door I opened it and . OH . MY . GOD. If that's mr.dolan , I'm so down to have these meetings everyday!

"Hi I'm here for ..." He said looking down at his paper to check my name.
"Louise" He continued.
"Yup that's me." I smiled trying to hide how flustered I was.
"Come in!" He walked in as we exchanged smiles. Maybe this wasn't going to be so bad after all.

I got him some water and we sat down on the couch. It was silent before i broke it and said,
"Hey. So you must be mr.dolan??" I asked.
"Yup but call me Grayson." I smiled and blushed as his eyes scanned me up and down.

"So How old you?" I couldn't help but ask.
"I'm 18"
"Are you single?" I blurted our. Oh my . What did I just say . No no no . I went red with embarrassment and I looked down as I fiddled with my fingers.

"I'm sorry i-" I stuttered.
"No it's fine . Yes I am. Are you single ??" He replied as laughed.
"Yup." I blushed.
"So let's talk about school then!" He said picking up his folders.

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Hey guys so I never like my books and so I'm hoping this one is different! The first part about languages is inspired by my ibf on igggg. I won't say who in case she doesn't want ppl knowing but I hope she is okay w it eee. Xx