Suicide - gd

Chapter 20

I woke up wrapped up in graysons jumper and I remember everything from the night before. Tears fill my eyes but I soon try to blink them away as I turn and see Grayson asleep on the chair next to my bed. He was so cute and caring and shit he caught me looking.

"Good morning beautiful." He got up and sat next to me on the bed.
I blushed.
"Good morning ."
"Are u okay now?" He reached for my hands and at the same time we noticed the red marks on my wrists.

I tried to pull them away but he had tight grip on them making me remember last night and how he held my wrists even tighter than Grayson was right now.

I struggled to breath, like my throat was closing up and my lungs were full of water and Like I had used up all the air in the room.

"Lou I need you to calm down . Everything is ok , you're okay." He let of my wrists but it didn't help I couldn't get the imagine out of my head.

I was gasping for air as I watched Grayson panick infront of me until he inched his face closer to mine and kissed me.

It was like he was passed the air to me through kissing and my lungs were no longer tight and heavy . He pulled away and my throat was no longer tight.

"I heard kissing helps panick attacks." He smiles and I fall into his arms with mine around neck.

"You know, I love you Grayson."
"I love you too"
We paused for a moment until Grayson spoke again.

"You know Lou , you can tell me anything."
"I know."
"So do you want to tell me what the marks on your wrist are from?"

I didn't speak I just shook my head. I decided to go in the shower so I left Grayson in my room as I went in the bathroom and changed.

My phone screen lit up and Justin's name popped up on my phone.

Justin:I had fun last night , I know you did too

Grays POV

What is that supposed to mean .

Me: what fun
Justin:don't act dumb and if you try tell anyone I forced you or "raped" you you are done I mean who do u think they will believe some girl with no friends or the hottest most popular boy in school. You decide. See you in schoolll xoxo

I couldn't even believe what I was reading and didn't hear Louisa shouting for a towel in the bathroom until she walked out and saw me holding her phone.

"What are you doing?"
"What did Justin do to you"

She didn't even have an expression she just stood there as a gear rolled down he emotionless face.

"Tell me please I love you we can get through this I promise whatever it is."
She started crying . A lot. Until she paused to try speak.
"He . He pushed me on the bed and - and he took off my clothes . And he raped me."

My heart dropped and I felt like I had a lump in my thoat. I didn't know what to say so I just stood there looking at her.

"Grayson he raped me. I tried to stop him I did I said no I promise but."

I hugged her and my hoodie soaked up the tears pouring from her eyes. She gasped for air as he screamed and cried onto my shoulder . Her voice was croaky and her sobs laced with helplessness.

I played with her hair while texting behind her.

Me:this is Grayson and you are gonna regret anything you did to Louisa. I'll make you pay . You wait you fucking bastard. You fucking wait.

Anger rushed through me and I was blinded by hate.

All I skated was for Justin . To fucking die.