Suicide - gd

Chapter 22

I sat quietly as Grayson sat opposite me on the bed.

"I really think we should get her stuff Lou." Grayson moved closer to me.
"No . It was probably just junk she had left in her car anyway I don't want it, any of it."
"Cmon-" Grayson continued but I cut him off by hugging him . I hugged him as tight as I could and as hard as my body would let me and he wrapped his arms around me too and then looked into my eyes.

"I love you."

Things weren't good since I was diagnosed.
Grayson still didn't know , no one did accept Arden.

I dialled her number and asked her to come over, she agreed.

10 mins later
Grayson left as Arden passed him .
"I'll be back later, if you need anything text me okay , I'll just be at home."

I smiled and shut the door.
"You got a good one girl." Arden looked at me and winked as I laughed and looked down , my smile soon turned into a frown.

"You haven't told him have you."

I looked up and shook my head.

"It will break him. He's already lost so much."

Arden takes me hands,
"Look Lou . He needs to know , he has a right to know and sooner or later he will find out. You know treatment?"
"I'm not doing chemo"
Arden steps back and nervously laughs.
"You aren't being serious?"

I look at her and she knows I am.

"No lou you have to . You have to." She concerningly looks at me n I look away .

"Look I'll tell Grayson when I see him later but that's all."

"I think I want to be alone now sorry Arden." I open and the door and Arden frowns.
"But I only just got here." She says and I don't speak . She walks towards the door and smiles before heading to her car.

I close the door behind me and my eyes become blurry as I walk to the kitchen and take a knife out of my drawer.

I look at my wrists and begin to cut.
It would take the emotional pain away I thought .
But it didn't. For once I was numb.

I dropped the knife and put tissues on my arm before going upstairs and heading back to bed.

2 hours later

Grayson was playing with my hair and I immediately woke up .

He laughed and said,
"I take it Arden's gone?" And I nod.

I go to get up forgetting about my arm and immediat,y hesitate.

I was about to ask Grayson to leave when I realised he was wearing sunglasses in a house with all the curtains pulled.

I frown and go to take him off his face when he grabs my arms and goes to speak but nothing comes out.

"Grayson?" I frown again and he just looks around not saying anything.

I quickly snatch them off his face and it's obvious what he was trying to hide.

His eye was purple mixed with black and pink, I rea he's to touch but Grayson flinched.

"Don't . Please."

"Okay but Grayson what happened ?" I touch hair and caress his cheek.

"Look there's no point in you not telling me I'm going to find out."
" Lou you know how my dad gets."

"Grayson no . No I didn't , you never talk about him." I sit up making sure to keep my arm hidden.

"Can we leave it please ?" He looked down and I sighed.

"If that's what you want but if it happened again I'm not just going to sit back, okay?"
"Okay." He replied.

I went to peck him but he turned away.

"I think I just want to lie with you right now."

"Okay that's fine." I smiled and turned around for him to spoon me , which he did.

A silent tear fell down my face .

I couldn't tell him now.