Everything's Not Okay

Just Stop

"Stay still." I feel his harsh hand force my back down on the couch. My eyes automatically close. His other hand is still holding onto my wrists. I can't get them free, I've already tried. It ended badly. My throat is sore, my neck hurts, my wrists are definitely red, and my heart is racing like crazy. When will it end? Please just end it.

I don't want to be here. I want to go back to U.A. Why won't you let me leave?!

"You're gonna enjoy it this time, trust me."

No

No I won't

"5th time's the charm, huh?" Mr. Akagi laughs. I know he's enjoying this a whole lot more since I'm not fighting back as much. His hands move away from my wrist and back and go to my waist instead. I know what's coming no matter how hard I try to deny it. I instantly pull my hands away from him to shut my mouth as soon as I felt it. I don't want any noise coming out. I know it's a natural reaction, I know I'm overreacting, but I don't care.

I just want my body back to myself and only myself.

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The walk back to U.A. feels cold. Too cold. I don't like it, at all.

I feel as if I'm naked.

Stripped of everything

Can anyone see me like this? Do they know what happened? Is it obvious?

It's not like they can see the red and purple splotches that litter my body, but what if they can? I'm sticking out too much. I should've worn a long sleeve shirt. I was too naive to think that nothing bad would've happened. That was dumb of me.

Stupid Denki

My wrists are aching. The red outlines on them are still prominent. They won't be that visible by tomorrow, but I'll still have to restock on my concealer until they fully fade away.

Good big brother my ass. I can't do shit for them.

Is it noticeable? I have a slight limp too. People are bound to realize, it doesn't take a genius to figure out what happened.

I look exactly like he said

Was he telling the truth? Am I a who-.

No, don't say it. If you say it then it'll come true. Just shut up Denki!

If I just listened to Mr. Akagi none of this would've ever happened. It's my fault, no one else's.

No. I should be fine. This is like every other week, it's nothing different. I should be used to this by now.

Stop shaking, Denki. He barely even touched you.

Unwanted tears are rolling down my face, hard.

He didn't touch you. You both sat down and had a nice civil conversation about the kids. Nothing else happened. Yes he got mad, but after blowing off some steam he was fine. You got to see the kids, and they don't know a thing. Because nothing happened.