Jimon Short Stories

The End of a Feeling

- If that's what you want, then have a good life!

SIMON POV:

I was in a very ungrateful position for a long time. My dream since I was a child was to be a renowned artist and have my records for sale and that opportunity could have finally arrived. I usually sing at the bar near my old school and one day a Los Angeles music producer saw me and after a few meetings with him, he offered me a music contract.

It is obviously the opportunity of my life! But there is one thing, or rather a person, that makes me doubt the step I must take that is Jace! Jace and I have been boyfriends since our second year of college. In other words, we have been dating for three years and I couldn't be happier with our relationship.

After my meeting with the producer, me and Jace when we arrived at our apartment, we had to discuss the pros and cons of going to Los Angeles and after a lot of indecision, I decided that I would go there because it was a great opportunity to reach my dream and was trying to convince Jace to come with me.

- Deep down what I feel for Simon is a deep friendship.

When I heard those words come out of Jace's mouth, I felt like my heart was breaking in pieces. Something inside me had died at that moment and I didn't know that I could ever revive!

POV JACE:

I was about to make the most complicated decision of my life and I knew that what I thought would be the best way to end Simon's indecision would hurt me a lot but it was what had to be done.

I met Clary on a terrace and we were talking about Simon and his contract. When Clary told me that he had told her that he was going to stay here for me, I confirmed that what I was going to do today would really have to be done. I already had the impression that he was a little behind on accepting the proposal because of us, but today Clary confirmed my suspicions.

- Did Simon really say he was here because of me?

- Yes, he likes you too much Jace.

- You know, things are not what they used to be, oddly enough I discovered that I don't like Simon that much anymore.

- Jace, what are you saying there? Are you kidding me?

- I wish I was, but no. When Simon told me there was a chance he could leave for Los Angeles and I realized I could lose him forever, I didn't feel that feeling that we're supposed to feel. I just didn't feel anything!

- But how is that possible? You love each other and have such a beautiful and lasting relationship. Whenever they're together, it feels like magic!

- You said it right, Clary. Looks! But in fact it is no longer! I think that at the end of these three years I realized that what was between us was routine.

- I still don't believe that much, but you know what you feel.

- Explain something to me, how do you know you really like a person?

- When I'm about to lose it.

- Exactly, when I realized I could lose him, I didn't feel anything ... Unless of course, he is an incredible kid. Deep down what I feel for Simon is a deep friendship.

- If that's what you feel, you have to tell him!

- Yes and I will! I'm just getting up the courage to tell you the truth!

- I know and I will tell ... And I will do everything so that we will be friends.

- I don't want to be your friend! I just want one thing from you, distance. You weren't expecting me to show up here and accidentally hear your confession to my best friend.

- I didn't want you to know this way.

- But I knew and I'm glad! If you weren't going to continue lying to me. What a disappointment, I would stay here for you. I was going to miss the opportunity of a life just because of you.

- I was going to tell you Si.

- When? When there was no longer an opportunity for me to sign that contract? Find out already that I never want to see you in front of me or painted gold again. You died for me! "Said Simon and left, leaving only Clary.

As soon as he was gone, I couldn't take it anymore and let the tears fall down my face. Clary looked at me with pity but with a hint of confusion due to my behavior after he left that way.

- I just lost the love of my life ....

- Jace, tell me the truth what just happened?

- It had to be done Clary! - I exclaimed still crying. - It cost me so much to do that, but so much ...

- I know and there was a time when I saw that you were dying inside when I heard him speak that way.

- It was the only option, that is the opportunity of his life and he could not waste it because of me. It wasn't going to be fair ...

Today had been the most exhausting day of my life and I sat on the sofa in our house thinking about what had happened and what it meant for my future. I had just told the man in my life that I felt for him was a simple friendship.

The only thing I can hope for right now is that Simon will be very happy and very successful in his artistic life.