Goddess of Madness (Completed)

Beg thee

I heard screech of tires sa likod ko. Kita sa side mirror ang dalawang itim na toyota.

"Ta@gna." Hindi maganda ang pakiramdam ko lalo na at nakita ko ang kuwago na sign ng organisasyong kinabilangan noon ni Siyera. Hindi nila talaga ako patatahimikin hangang hindi ako namamatay.

Maulan at nakipag habulan ako sa gitna ng magubat na parte ng Encarnacion. I can barely see the way. Lumakas ang ulan until it's literary zero visibility. Masakit ang bawat patak ng ulan. I thought naiwan ko na sila. Nang makakalagpas na ako sa palikong curve who would have expect that there will be a blinding light. There was a freaking car na nasa harap ko! Then I've realized. This was planned. They plan all this. And I knew I fucked up. The only chance that I had when the two cars in front on my way are blocking my path is to speed up and use their car as a ramp. Pero kailangan ko ng buwelo at hindi sapat ang distansya lalo na at paplapit narin sila sakin. Narinig ko din ang kasunod na mga sasakyan sa likod ko. Hindi ito sine. Hindi ko sila kakayanin lalo at armado sila. Why now ? I'm not afraid of death. I crave for something that will hurt me. It made me feel I'm alive. I don't wanna die unless I helped out my cousin.

Parang nag slow mo ang lahat. Suddenly I remember those times when I feel lonely. When I need my mother and she is with her family. I am a sad child. It hurt when no one cares for you. Until you became numb. When you tried so hard to be the perfect daughter and when you realized it's not going to worth it. You will never be realized.
I remembered my cousin who love me. I remember those times that we are together, singing our heart out, performing infront of people.
I remembered him. He who can see through me. He was like a brother I never had until he broke my trust. Thaddeus. Then my brothers and father that have my back.
Then it switch back to the sunshine. My ray of sunshine. Siyera. I smiled a little when I remember him calling me and smiling at me brightly. Saying things that it'll be alright. And lastly him. He who hated me. He whom I loved and watched for a far. Just by staring at his face closed eyes while in the room nor when he is sleeping on the rooftop. Ang mga ngiting parang kay mahal. Madalang man ay nakakapag pakabog ng aking dibdib.

Before they could hit me. Pikit matang iniliko ko ang motor at dumiretso sa bangin. This curve is really a lethal. Puro puno at lupa ang babagsakan sa bangin na nasa ilalim. Walang tubig kaya alam kong hindi ako makakatakas kay kamatayan.

I cried. My tears won't stop falling as my body seems to be flying. Napahiwalay ako sa motor. I smiled bitterly through my quivering lips as I recall the most bitter part of my memory.

"Athena." Hinigit nya ako sa may cr ng lalaki. Uwian na noon. Nauuna si Siyera na maglakad at hinigit nya ako. Mahigpit nyang hawak ang aking braso. I just looked at his dark brown eyes. His hair is much longer. It almost cover his attractive eyes.

"Wo feichang xihuan ni." Bahagyang napakunot ang noo ko. Hindi dahil sa hindi ko sya naiintindihan. Alam kong may dugo rin silang chinese. Filipina chinese ang mama nila. Ang hindi ko maintindihan ay kung bakit? Gusto nya ako? Paano ? Lagi kaming nagtatalo. Hindi sya madalas magsalita, gayon din ako.

Makaraan ng ilang saglit ay binitiwan nya rin ako at ngumiti ng pilit.

"Never mind." Akala nya siguro di ko sya naintindihan. I knew a lot of language. 13 to be exact and I stopped right there. Although I don't want to learn anymore. I can learn it effortlessly. I have an almost photographic memory.

"You know too well what will Siyera feel about this." I said and he faced me in a snap. His mouth open and then closed as he clenched it tightly.

"Right. We can't be. This can't be." Mas parang sinasabi nya ito sa sarili nya kesa sa akin.

That time I really felt happy. As the day pass by, I can see him differently. In a different light as what they say.

The second time that he expressed his feelings. I realized that I feel something for him.

"Athena... I love you but I cannot be with you." I can feel something inside me broke. I never told him that I love him too. That is the first time in my life that I wanna hold someone in my arms. I wanna hold his hand when he walked away and beg him to stay...

Stay. The last word I had in my mind when I felt my body tumbling down from one branch to another. I can feel every injury that I take for such an impact. Nagpagulong gulong sa lupa. Humampas ang katawan sa mga puno. Hangang sa tumama ang ulo ko sa kung saan saan.
I can feel my consciousness slowly drifting away.

Is it the end ? God. I never prayed. This once I pray for forgiveness. If only you can give me another life. If only I can have another chance of lifetime. I want to say to all those people I love that I love them. I want to rescue Aphrodite. Let her be safe. Let him be safe for me. I beg thee.