They were inseparable. Until he left without a word. Now he's back, and the truth might destroy them.
Josh was everything to Bonnie. Her best friend, her neighbor, her safe haven. Until one day, he vanished.
Four years later, he's back and he's det...
"Don't make plans with anyone else for tonight, BonBon; I'm picking you up after school."
I stare down at my phone, reading the message repeatedly. I don't know what he has planned, but who am I to reject an invitation like that? I wouldn't even call that an invitation, more like a demand. He didn't leave any room for hesitation on my end.
I pick up my things from the table and head off towards my next class. I don't have either Scott or Liv in my next class, so I guess ill just have to wait for the tea.
***
After school, I make my way to the entrance, planning on waiting for Scott and Olivia, but I am frozen when I spot the familiar figure leaning against a car at the top end of the parking lot.
"What the fuck," I mumble under my breath, not able to contain my frustration. I don't even understand why I am so annoyed, but I am. He can't just show up like this and expect me to fall at his feet. He left me once. What's going to stop him from doing it again? I don't want to feel that pain another time.
I walk up to him, a frown on my face, but he smirks back at me like this is normal, like everything is completely fine. I step in front of him and he winks. I groan in response and roll my eyes, "what are you doing here?" he chuckles, pushing off his car and leaning towards me, his face lingering inches from mine, so close I can feel him breathing.
"I told you I was picking you up after school," he shrugs, and I sigh because he's not lying. I knew he said that, but I didn't think he was actually serious. Considering how often he likes to mess with me, I just assumed it was another joke.
"Yeah, I know, but I didn't think you were serious," he frowns at me now, but somehow still grins through his confusion, "of course I was serious, let's go." He opens the passenger door for me to get in, and I do. Without question, I slide into his car and settle into the warm leather seat.
I watch as he rounds the car and gets in the driver's seat. I watch his every move, following each line of his body, and I have to fight back the urge to drool over him. He knows he's hot, and he knows how he affects women. That's why I won't give him the satisfaction of knowing just how bad I want a taste.
Just a little taste of him, and I wouldn't be so fascinated anymore, but then again, I could risk tasting him and becoming addicted. It's just safer if I keep my mouth to myself.
"Where are we going?" I ask, but he doesn't answer me. He puts his car into drive and pulls out of the parking lot. I glance around to see eyes following us, the eyes belonging to Sky. I can almost hear the grinding of his teeth. He is clenching so hard.
Just seeing that look on his face makes all of this worth it. I don't understand how he can be hurt by seeing me with someone else, but god it feels good knowing I still impact him. My phone vibrates in my pocket and I pull it out, expecting a scathing message from Sky, but I'm surprised to see a message from Olivia.
"What the hell Bonnie, I need details later!" - Olivia
"Do you trust me?" Josh says, breaking the awkward silence filling his car, "of course I don't trust you," I retorted, crossing my arms in a defensive move. "Why would I ever trust you again?" he doesn't answer me, but I look over to see an expression on his face I know all too well.
"Look," I say, trying to get his attention off his thoughts, "I don't trust you, but that can change if you prove to me you are trustworthy again," I give him the hope I know he wants, but he doesn't deserve it. He hurt me, he knows he did, but I have a feeling there's something else going on here. Something he isn't telling me, and I want to find out what it is.
"I want to make things right between us, that's all I want, BonBon," I sigh, not knowing how to respond to that. I want Josh back, Josh, from before he shattered my heart, but I don't know if that will ever happen. I feel his warm hand on my thigh. I look up to find him watching me. We aren't even driving anymore and I haven't even noticed.
He squeezes my thigh lightly, a pained expression on his beautiful face. "Give me that chance, that's all I ask," I nod because of course, I will let him do that. I would let Josh do anything. He asked if it meant I had his attention. Pathetic, ugh.
"Where are we?" I ask, looking around at an empty field, completely confused. "Did you bring me here to kill me? Because that isn't a good way to gain my trust," I chuckle, and he smirks, which causes me to stop. "Wait, you aren't seriously going to kill me, are you?!"
"I'm not going to confirm or deny those accusations," he gets out of the car before I can reply again. Great, if this is the way I'm going to die, it better be death by kissing or something, so at least I won't die in pain.
I get out of the car and see Josh sitting in the middle of the field before he lays down on a picnic rug. I guess death by food would be a nice way to go as well. I sit down beside him and glance down to see a relaxed smile on his face. His eyes are closed, and he is basking in the sun.
"So, where's the food?" I ask, glancing around to see there aren't any. It's just him, on a picnic rug. He reaches over, grabbing my hand in his, "lay down, just enjoy this," I do as he says and lay down beside him. He doesn't let go of my hand, though, and I struggle to breathe.
Internally, I scream at my heart for being so damn transparent. It should follow my brains lead more often and realize getting close to him this fast isn't a good idea.
"Talk to me. What's been going on in your life since I left?"
"Is this why you brought me out here? To interrogate me?" I rip my hand from him, and he sighs in frustration. "No, of course not, I just want to get to know you again." he sits up slightly and leans on his right elbow to face me. "I want us to find our way back to each other and if that's ever going to happen, we need to do this. We need to talk through our lives."
I groan, really not wanting to do this, but if it'll make things better between us, it's worth a shot. "Fine, short version, you left, and it broke me completely. I thought my world was over the second you were gone from my life, but I found my way back and found happiness again. Then, I fell in love with a boy who ended up also breaking me completely, ruining any chance of me having a normal, loving relationship ever again, and now I'm laying in a field with a boy that I once loved, who I thought I'd never see again,"
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