Prohibited// Ruel Van Dijk

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Ruel's POV

she gently opened her eyes, looked at me, smiled, and then continued to freak out

"y/n, it's okay, nothings going to happen" i reassured her

with her eyes still tightly shut she nodded her head

"do u want to listen to some music?" i asked her

she nodded again as i pulled out my airpod pros and put one in her ear (cause ruel's a rich bitch)

i played some one direction cause i know she loves them.

she then took a breath

and slowly opened her eyes

She looked at me and smiled

After the plane was in the air for a bit, y/n became a lot more calmer

"I didn't know that you were scared of planes" i chuckled as i searched for a movie

"I didn't think it was important" she mumbled

She was acting distant still, i dont get why

"You can always tell me stuff y/n" i replied to her

She just nodded

"Do you wanna watch this?" she asked as she picked the movie 'Amy'

"Hm, is there anything else?" i asked her

"Oh thats right... dont worry about it" she said with a small smile

"You saw the interview didn't you?" i asked her

She nodded

"Great..." i said, this is why i dont watch sad movies on place, oh and also why i shouldn't expose myself in interviews

"Sorry" she said again

"Oh, no its okay, you dont need to say sorry, you havent done anything" i said confused

Why was she being like this?

Like i was a  stranger?

y/n always has something to say

This was too weird, but i know i couldn't say anything

She eventually put on a movie and slowly drifted to sleep

I knew i needed to fix things, and i needed to make it quick

Y/N's POV

I didn't know what to do

I was acting awkward without meaning to

I've really stuffed things up, i know it

I just tried to close my eyes and drift off to sleep, all of this guilt stuck on my mind

As soon as we got to the hotel, i needed to call coco, only she would know what to do

I also need to put on a smile and bloody perform in front of thousands, which i have no experience doing whatsoever

I woke up when everything was super bright, ruel was asleep next to me

I checked the time on the small TV screen provided

4:48 pm

We are supposed to be arriving at 5:00 pm

That means i needed to wake up ruel, which i was not up for cause im stupid and being all awkies around him

"Oi ruel mate, we're landing soon" Joel said as he walked pass from the bathroom

Thank God for dear Joel Chaama, that would've been weird if i did it

"Oh shit" ruel said as his eyes opened and immediately turned to me, then he became a lot calmer and took out his phone

Ruel's POV

Did i just have nightmare about loosing y/n? Yes

Do i ever want that to happen? No fucking way

Y/N's POV

As the plane landed, i squeezed my eyes shut together

And then ruel' hand was placed on top of mine again, which gave me literal goosebumps

We got our stuff and walked off the plane, i pulled my hood over my messy hair, cause i literally looked like a grot

Ruel looked perfect, his hair was slightly messy, but a hot messy, and he barely had any bags under his eyes

As soon as we got off the plane, we were bombarded with fans

"Hey guys" ruel said

"ONJFBWIDJCRONCWJ ITS HIM OMG HI WBIDE@UFBD(&EBUWNXAS" all of the girls screamed, i was scared to say the least

"Isn't it better if we put the cameras down guys? I'm right here, you don't need to look at the phones" he said with a chuckle

We somehow made it out of the airport after ruel took a group photo with all of the screaming girls

"Fuck" ruel said as we finally made it into the uber

Ruel's POV

I couldnt get that fucking dream out of my head

The screams didn't make it any better, it replayed over and over in my mind

When we finally made it to the uber, i was at peace, kind of

Losing her was seeping into my subconscious and i couldn't let that happen

Y/N's POV

"Okay so, room arrangements" Michelled announced as she turned around

"Kye and Jaydean" she said

"Me and kate obviously" she said again

"Joel will be with Nate when he arrives" she continued the list

"And... y/n and ruel" she said as she tucked the list back into her back pack

I looked over to ruel and he gave me a faint smile

Was he okay?

He looked sick, he was turning pale slowly

"Great!" Jaydean said as he squealed

The drive to the hotel was only five minutes, which was good, cause i think ruel was getting carsick

We grabbed out our bags from the boot and walked in to check our rooms and have a rest before the full day tomorrow

Ruel and i each got a keycard just incase one of us lost it

We then walked into the two bedroom room

I put my bags into the corner of the room and looked around

Ruel was still standing in the doorway

He looked like he was about to fall

His legs gave out as i quickly ran and tried to grab him before he fell onto the floor

He completely broke down in my arms
He wrapped his arms tightly around me as i did the same

At this point we were both crying

I had never seen Ruel like this before

"Im sorry, im so fucking sorry" he said through tears

"Don't apologize, ruel, please don't apologize" i said as i tried to move the hair from his face

"y/n, i love you, i've loved you since to first time i saw you, i love you, that day at your house when you told me you loved me, i meant to say it, i meant to say it, and ive kicked myself every day since then cause i didn't say it, but i do, i love you, i've loved you, since that day at the party when you looked after me when no one else was there for me, the thing is, i dont know what happens tomorrow or in 2 minutes, all i know is, i want this feeling to keep on going, cause this whole experience, i'm not ready for it to be over, i want it to be the real thing, i mean i think it is the real thing, i just want a chance to prove it, i do, i love you Y/n Y/l/n"