Poetic Problem Book I

Undefined Fear

I always thought something was wrong with me.
In places with so many people
And yet
I feel nothing but alone.

All I wish for is to be set free.
It feels like there are chains around me
I'm trapped
Cramped in my own home.

They always tell me friendship and love is something we need.
But I'm fine on my own
I'm fine
Not trapped with other's bones.

All I need to do is count to three
But recently it hasn't worked
I'm panicking
Every time I find a throne.

The arms are closing in like a boot to a bee.
I'm hyperventilating
Stuck
My mind thinking of the unkown.

I'm a bug with my skeleton a shield
But it encloses my soul
Tightly fit
I can't move out of this dome.

People are closer than they have ever been.
To close to me
To close
My face now pale tone.

I'll welcome you to light touch only.
Other than when I let you in
Leave me
I'm fine on my own.

March 20, 2020

I can't get close
It'll only hurt.

I can't fit in
I'll feel like dirt.

If I act like you
I'm closed off.

I'll be caged
Just a knockoff.

I need to be free
Be myself.

But in this room
I'm crammed in a bookshelf.

Take a read
But I'm blacked out.

You get close
I'll reroute.

Cornered no more
I can finally breathe.

Suffocated in water
Light up so I Seethe.

The walls close in
My heart will stop.

I'll snap soon
Wing a wallop.

I want to be safe
Don't keep me in here.

The people, the walls
They close in this bombardier.

There are to many people
They do nothing but talk.

I already fear the numbers
Why murmur in flock?

They tie my hands back
I'm left a leper.

Forgotten in a closet
Trapped in walls forever.

March 20, 2020