TW: Suicide attempt
Zak POV
I stood at the edge of the building again. Third time is always the charm. That's what they say at least.
No one can stop me this time.
And if someone does.
I'll try again.
Because there's no use for me in the world.
Waste of recourses.
Waste of air.
Waste of space.
Waste of time.
No purpose.
But what about your frien-
SHUT UP
They don't care about me.
No one ever has.
And no one ever will.
I got closer to the edge.
I'm ready.
Remember their reactions when you tried the first time?
Remember how Darryl felt when he found you the second time?
You know he would blame himself if you did this.
We both know it's true.
No he was just faking it.
He's not that good of an actor.
It would destroy him to know that he didn't help you enough.
I don't care and neither does he.
That's not true.
He cares about you.
And so do the rest of your friends.
Just because your family left doesn't mean they will too.
Yes they will.
They always do.
Okay fine then jump.
And watch how all your friends cry when they get that phone call.
Watch how they all grieve.
And it'll seem like it.
But they never move on.
Never.
So they blame themselves.
That's all they can do.
Because you would no longer be there.
Please stop it.
And when they grow old.
They'll think about you and wish you were there.
But you wouldn't be there.
All because of this one decision.
You would never be there.
Stop.
And Darryl will sit there.
Just sitting in silence.
Looking at the spot next to him.
Thinking that if he tried harder.
You would've been there.
Do you really want to do that to them?
Do you really want to do that to yourself?
I SAID STOP
Think really hard.
Do you really want to leave this world yet?
Or do you want to live?
Don't you want to live till the day where you finally feel alive?
Like where you can truly breathe for the first time?
Don't you want to feel that?
God dammit.
I backed away from the edge, collapsing onto the floor. I felt tears streaming down my face as I pulled out my phone. I dialed his number and listened to it ring a few times.
"Hello?"
"Darryl, can you come get me?"
So this was supposed to turn out COMPLETELY different, but I like it like this soooooo yeah
