Borrowed • Jesse Lingard

nineteen.

"Montana open the door! I know you're in there" I roll my eyes hearing Chris knocking on my front door. Either someone has told him or the photos are out there already. My phone hasn't stopped ringing between Jesse and everyone else who's trying to get their fill of gossip. Ignoring Chris at the door I turn the TV up, I'm not watching anything specific but it drowns out the noise of Chris shouting.

"What the hell are you doing?" I ask seeing Chris walk into my living room.

"I think you're forgetting you gave me a key for emergencies. What the fuck are you playing at?" Chris shouts pacing around my living room.

"No! You do not come into my house and shout at me!"

"Have you got any idea what you've done? There was a reason I told you to stay away from footballers!" I know Chris might be angry but he has no reason to speak to me like this "and Jesse! For fuck sake he's married!"

"Do not pin all of this on me! It takes two to tango so if you're going to be this angry with me be angry with Jesse as well!" I shout standing up to face Chris.

"Don't even get me started on him! I'm absolutely fuming with both of you! Have you got any idea how this looks to the club! What the fuck will the public think!"

"Honestly Chris I couldn't give a fuck what the public think. It has nothing to do with them" I shout back. The general public have been the last thing on my mind.

"Well you should care! Everyone is going to think you're a home wrecking slut!" Looking at Chris I know exactly what he wants to say.

"And do you think that?" I ask and I know what his answer will be. He's made it abundantly clear what he thinks of me and this situation.

"Yes okay I do think that! He might not have been happy with his wife but at the end of the day she's still his wife and he has a daughter! If he wasn't happy he should have done something about it! How long?"

"How long?" I repeat Chris's question without any real need.

"How long has it been going on?" I can see Chris is getting more and more frustrated. I understand in a way because if the tables were turned I'd be livid but at the end of the day me and Jesse are adults, we've both got ourselves into this mess.

"Since our birthday party" I bite my lip nervous. I feel like this is going to tip him over the edge.

"That was six months ago! This is unbelievable! I actually have no words for you right now. I think it's best if you stay away from Jesse especially but stay away from the games for now as well. You don't need to draw attention to yourself" Chris says with a look on his face that I've never seen before. He's disgusted with me I know it.

"Chris do not speak to me like I'm a child! I know what I've done and this is for me to deal with. As for stay away from games? I couldn't give a fuck any more Chris, you haven't wanted me here since I got back from Australia anyway" It's hard to tell if Chris has wanted me here, to me it hasn't seemed it at times but then on the flip side he did buy me a house.

"That's not true and you know it! I wanted nothing more than to have my little sister home again but you make it so difficult! I'm heading home I don't even know what to say to you right now" Chris says before walking out. I know I've fucked up, I shouldn't have ever got involved wit Jesse but I did.

A few weeks pass and I manage to avoid everyone by spending most of my time at work. The season finished last weekend so thankfully most people have gone on holiday. I still haven't spoke to Jesse and quite frankly I don't think I want to. Hearing the door I look through the peephole and see Nicky stood there with Andreas.