Sitting on the sofa I play with Anoushka's hair as she watches whatever kids show Zoe found for her. I haven't had an update from Kirsty for a few hours and my mind is in overdrive. The last time she had an update was at the stadium.
"How could he ever think you're sick of her being around? It's obvious to me in a few hours how much you adore her."
"Louis said he'd come to pick her up but I told him to leave her here. Sounds selfish but it gives me comfort knowing I've got a piece of him with me" if I can't be with Jesse at the hospital I feel like the only place for me is at home looking after what's most precious to him.
"Why doesn't he leave Daniela? Imagine how good you two could be if you were out in the open"
"He worries that she'd take Anoushka to the states with her out of spite" I say remembering the conversations me and Jesse have had "and honestly I think she would even though Jesse has her the majority of the time. I can't make him choose because I know he'd choose his daughter and to be honest I wouldn't expect anything different"
"You're a better person than I'd be" Zoe says taking a drink of her wine. "No way would I put up with him clearly being in love with you but yet he's happy enough to stay married in a loveless marriage. He can't have his cake and eat it too maybe not love but you can see where I'm coming from"
"Zoe it wasn't like that"
"Then tell me because I don't understand why you'd put yourself through this when it wasn't ever going anywhere when he won't leave his wife"
"I'm not asking for him to leave his wife" saved by my phone ringing I see Kirsty's name on the screen "how is he?" I ask not giving Kirsty a chance to speak.
"It's a grade two sprain so only a partial tear of the ACL. Bad but not as bad as it could've been" hearing Kirsty say that I'm relieved it's not a grade three but it still means Jesse could be out for around six months. "They're going to operate tomorrow when the swellings gone down a little bit. He's asked for Noush so I'll get him settled in a room then I'll come and pick her up"
"I can bring her. I don't mind" I say jumping at the chance to see Jesse. We might not be together anymore but I still want to see him. After agreeing that I'll go to the hospital I see Zoe giving me a disapproving look "go on say it"
"I just can't believe you're going to jump for him. Let his family come and pick his daughter up. She isn't your responsibility" I don't want to get into an argument so I'm just going to let Zoe think what she wants.
"I know you've got your opinion on this whole thing but I can't just stop caring" I say "at the end of the day he's a footballer and it could be a career ending injury and I'd hate to think my brother was in this situation. Nooshi should we go and see daddy?" I ask Anoushka completely ending the conversation.
"Yes! You too?"
"Yeah me too. Let's get your shoes" I say before getting myself and Anoushka ready "I don't want to fall out with you over this Zoe. You're my closest friend"
"We're not going to fall out over this. I can disagree with something you're doing without falling out with you" Zoe says "anyway I need a place to stay while I'm here. Go on, lover boy's waiting"
"Thanks you're the best. Help yourself to anything while I'm gone. Come on Noush daddy's waiting" I say before leaving and driving to the hospital. I'm nervous to see Jesse, we didn't exactly end on good terms and now I'm going to see him with his mum there.
Arriving at the hospital I'm eventually given directions to the ward where Jesse is after arguing with the receptionist to convince her that I do actually know Jesse and I'm not just a fan trying to get access. Walking onto the ward I see Kirsty and Louis sat next to the bed where Jesse looks at me in shock, obviously he wasn't expecting me to turn up.
