Borrowed • Jesse Lingard

twenty four.

That night I'm sat in my apartment with Chris, Sam, Andreas and Neymar. It's been a long day and everyone is exhausted however I'm not ready for this day to end. Deciding we need to make the most of today and all being together I turn the music on trying not to wake Leo who's sleeping in the other room.

"Come on. I've got my favourite people together for one night only can we please make the most of it?" I say pouring myself a glass of wine. As everyone agrees they all grab a drink of their choice.

"Drinking games to start?" Sam suggests "This time no one is kissing anyone or doing a strip tease!"

"Who did a drunk strip tease?" Neymar asks laughing.

"That would be Montana"

"Andreas!" I can't believe he ratted me out so quickly! He's supposed to be my best friend!

"That's a party I'm gutted I missed out on!" Neymar says looking at me and I smile trying not to remember that night, the night I had to kiss Jesse in front of my brother.

"Anyway' I say trying to change the subject. It doesn't take any of us long to start and feel tipsy. Probably me more than anyone seen as I've chose to drink wine. My go to drink for getting absolutely steaming.

Dancing around my apartment with Sam I can't take the smile off my face. I know I'm drunk but I feel so happy and carefree. Hearing a Whitney Houston song come on shuffle Chris goes to change it when I tell him to leave it. As 'Where Do Broken Hearts Go' starts to play I can't but sing along.

"I had no idea you could sing like that!" Neymar says looking at me shocked.

"I don't tend to tell people very often" I say with a shrug. "Not many people know so count yourself as one of the lucky ones"

"You should let everyone know you have a voice like that. You're incredible!"

"We all know that Ney but she doesn't believe us" Andreas says giving me a look that he's given me a thousand times.

"Come with me" I say dragging everyone to the bathroom. Standing in the shower I play the instrumental version of 'Didn't We Almost Have it All' and sing along not needing the lyrics I've sang it to myself that many times. "Don't think I didn't notice you all with your phones out recording" I say with a smirk.

"How could we not! I've known you forever and I've never heard you sing with that much passion! Like I actually have tears in my eyes!" Sam says handing me a drink.

"Sometimes I just feel like I need to connect with a song" I say leaving the bathroom. I know by now all four of them have posted the video on at least two of their social media profiles and I think it's just something I'm going to have to deal with. My confidence may have came from two bottles of wine but the passion came from my heart.

"That was aimed at him wasn't it?" Andreas says leaning on the kitchen bench next to me.

"No"

"Montana I know you better than that. You can tell me"

"Maybe but it doesn't matter anyway what difference would it make? It just sums up how I've felt but I'm moving on. I thought about our conversation. You were right. Ney deserves all of me and that's what he's going to get, so much so I might ask to stay on in Paris when my contract ends" I say finally telling Andreas what I've been thinking about for the last few days. If I'm going to give all of me to Neymar I need to be here in Paris.

"As long as you do what's best for you that's all that matters" Andreas says before dragging me back to join everyone else.

It's December. I've been in Paris for six months having extended my stay from the initial three months I should have been here. Things with Neymar are going really well and I'm happy. Like genuinely happy. Am I a fan of my new WAG title? Absolutely not. Will I put up with it? For Neymar, absolutely. We've just landed back in Paris last night after a fleeting visit to Brazil and I must say I have fallen in love with the country just a little bit. PSG have one game left, they're playing Manchester United then I get to spend Christmas with Neymar and Davi with no football interruptions.