Borrowed • Jesse Lingard

twenty two.

Sitting up in the bed I look over at Neymar who's still asleep, I can't believe I'm in this situation. Things seem to have gone from zero to one hundred very quickly. I look at the bangle on my wrist and smile still not believing it's mine, I'm not materialistic but there's not a lot I wouldn't do for something this amazing. Hearing my phone ring I pick it up to see a FaceTime call from Chris. We might have argued when he found out about Jesse and harsh words were spoken but I forgave him. He's my brother and I'll never get another one.

"Sorry" I say noticing it's woke Neymar.

"It's okay. Answer it" he says still groggy as he looks up at me.

"Hiya you alright?" I say seeing Chris on my phone screen. After spending so much time with him in the UK I'm actually missing him.

"Yeah someone wanted to talk to you and I couldn't say no. She's just constantly been asking for you" Chris says as he turns the camera to Anoushka. Seeing her face I fill up with tears. I've missed her so much. In the time I've known her this is the longest we've been apart.

"Oh my god! Nooshi I've missed you so much!" I say and I can't stop myself crying. I feel like I've lost a part of me not seeing her nearly every day. "Is it just you two?"

"Yeah Sam's out with her mum, Leo's asleep and daddy's at a meeting isn't he Noush" Chris says and I think it's more for my reassurance that Jesse isn't there "have you missed Montana?"

"Tana! When can we see princesses again?"

"I'm sure we'll be able to go soon. You'll have to ask daddy is that okay?" I can't make promises to break them and it breaks my heart not knowing when or if I'll see Anoushka again.

"Where are you?" Chris asks and I know he's noticed that I'm not in my bedroom.

"Would you believe me if I said with a friend?" I say biting my lip. I know he said he's okay if I want to date Neymar but the last thing he needs to see is me in bed with him.

"Oh god Montana not again. Neymar?" He says and I don't know how he wants me to respond. Making sure I'm fully covered with the quilt I turn the camera slightly towards Neymar who's gone back to sleep.

"What do you mean not again? And yes it's Neymar. Can we please talk about this later?" I say feeling awkward having this conversation around Neymar.

"Okay but we will have this conversation later. Noush come and say bye to Montana"

"Bye Tana! See you soon"

"Bye baby. Love you to the moon and stars" I say biting my lip. I wonder what Jesse or Daniela would think if they knew I'd been talking to their daughter.

"Love you to the stars" Anoushka says blowing a kiss before we hang up. I was not prepared for that kind of emotion this early on a morning.

"Are you okay?" Neymar asks and I realise I'm an emotional wreck.

"I will be I just miss her. She became my sidekick in Manchester" I don't want to mention Jesse but I feel like Neymar knows that Anoushka is Jesse's daughter.

"I understand. I miss my little boy when he's back in Brazil" Neymar says as I lie back down looking at him.

"The difference being that he's actually your son. Anoushka is my ex-lovers daughter and that's nothing to be proud of" I say tracing the letters of his 'Gigante por Natureza' tattoo on his chest. There's something soothing about it.

"Forget your relationship with him for a minute. Regardless of the situation you would've still met Anoushka, she's a little human in her own right so either way you'd be missing her"