City of all things changed (ON HOLD)

11- Asthenophobia

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Asthenophobia- fear of being weak
Clary's POV-
I peeled open my eyes, they were sticking together a little, I had a dull ache in my head that confused me, this never usually happens to me, I felt disorientated, the normal dark exterior of my room is gone, it's now plain white, boring. I came to the conclusion quickly I wasn't in my own room, I wasn't even in the room at the Penhallows, no. Wherever I was, Jace would be near and quite possibly my mother, which means I desperately need to leave.
I flung the covers off my body and stood up, which was a terrible mistake. My head pounded drastically and the room decided to go and play ring-a-ring-a Rosie around me. Feeling like I was going to be sick, I sat down, controlled myself, then stood up. I saw I was still in my clothes which was good, nobody had seen my runes, they may have experimented on me or something.
Then I heard the faint sound of footsteps, I don't know who it was but I heard them come closer, I stood glaring at the door as if it was the one who had kidnapped me when it was pushed open to reveal my mother. Just what I needed.
"By the angel Clary, what are you doing awake?"
"What kind of question is that, how am I even supposed to answer that, I'll give it a try seeing as I'm bored, well, I'm not asleep for one, two, I'm standing here deciding what to do to get out of here, thinking about how I can make everyone that was involved in this kidnapping wish I was never born, thinking about how I need to find my weapons and get out of here as soon as I complete my previous task and get cleaned up. Is that the answer you were looking for Mother?" I spat, fuming and I'm not entirely sure as to why.
She jus stood there shocked, i smirked at her then pushed past her and into the hallway. this must be the New York institute, the layout was very similar to the other institutes we have been in. and if i am correct, that means that the elevator is incredibly noisy and would not help my stealthy exit.
i headed to the library to find, as expected, my weapons lying on the table, they were different to normal shadowhunter weapons i guess, some made from the fires of hell, some the tears of angels. Very hard to come by must i say, then add my various runes and you have the ultimate weapon right there.
i gathered them up and strapped them onto my belt. they didn't even weigh me down, i was used to this, father always used to strap heavy things around our hips, torso, arms, anything, then he would make Sebastian and i fight. it usually ended in a draw after we both became so tired we could barely stand, we would have been going for several hours under the watchful eye of father until we both or one of us literally dropped and could no longer fight. doing this helped with our ability to sustain stamina in fights as well, it gave you painful aching muscles aswell. i contined to stroll through the halls of the institute towards the general direction of the stairs. Father allways had so many lessons and training he would teach us, memorising institute layouts was one of them. Yet after all of these trainings, i still get caught by Jace and my puny mother who ran and went into hiding with her little boyfriend Lucian Greymark.
I felt disappointed in myself, how could they catch me? I was so much stronger than them! I was better at fighting and everything. I felt weak.
No! You are not weak, you are a shadowhunter. I told myself. I got ready to open the institute doors. There was something nagging the back of my mind, something was missing, I suddenly became frantic patting down my pockets.
I turned around gasping as I heard Jace, "it's a real nice stele you have here Clarissa Morgenstern" I see him twirling my precious stele around and around in circles, he doesn't know what we can do, I reassured myself. Now I was completely insane, I was talking to myself! "Is this how you did all of those strange runes on you and your weapons. They are strange, I have never seen them before. What kind of magic are you using?" I just scowled at him, I needed that back, it was extremely precious to me. Father gave it to me when he deemed me worthy, he gave Sebastian a sword that was more powerful than most. He would be so angry if I didn't have it. "Give it back, it is as normal as your it just holds more sentimental value, if you do not give it back I will be retrieving it myself, along with your hand." I growl out, I was getting angry, so he's going down if I get angry.
He just smirks, "you look cute when you're angry" he has a look of satisfaction on his face. I study him, I go back on all my father taught me then it hits me. Jace Herondale, not only does he think he is a Wayland, I figured out his battle tactic. Make his opponent annoyed or angry enough to lunge at him without thinking, then he can attack.
Now that I have figured him out, I have even more of an upper hand than before but I keep myself looking angry, which wasn't hard. He thinks he is succeeding. I then turn and open the large doors of the institute and walk out. Jace starts yelling from behind me, "no Clarissa! By the angel, Jocelyn, Alec, Isabelle!" I then slipped round the corner and pressed myself against the wall. I heard the clatter I was looking for, he dropped my stele. A minute later I heard trampling steps and then Jace ran out and through gate in pursuit of me, well that's what he thinks. Alec, Jocelyn and Isabelle follow and while waiting for a little bit, slipped into the institute and picked up my stele and drawing a portal. I thought of my home and stepped through the watery surface.

I closed the portal and then berthed in a deep breath, I was home. "Father, Jonathan! I am home" Jonathan came running towards me and engulfed me in a hug. "Oh clary I was so worried!" I looked at him with my eyebrow up, "you doubted my ability to escape those fools?"
"Never Clary, but I couldn't help it" he said smiling sheepishly. Father walked in calmly. I inclined my head "father"
"Clarissa, it took longer than I expected but welcome home"
"Always the one for encouragement" I said sarcastically, rolling my eyes.
He just looked at me disapprovingly. He didn't like when I was sarcastic. "I must talk with you both, meet me in my office" we walked after him and he sat in his chair and got straight to the point. "Clarissa, I am sending you back there, and we must hurry so they don't know you made it back here. You are going to watch over Jace Herondale from the inside. Get close to them all, become their 'friend' it will be useful in the upcoming events. Find Simon or his whereabouts and we will find him for you." Simon! I had forgotten about him, apparently so had Jonathan due to the look on his face. "Yes father, of course" I picked up my sketch book and pencils and then created a portal and thought of the room I had woken up in. I stepped through after hugging Jonathan and then closed it and lay on my bed drawing. I had hidden most of my more obvious weapons under my mattress so they could not be studied.
"Where did she go!" I heard an angry yell, footsteps pounded up towards my room. The door slammed open, I should have locked that.. A fuming Jace stood in my doorway.
"Well that backfired on you didn't it Jace?" Not even looking up from the sketch I was doing. It was kind of random but I kept seeing the same thing and decided to draw it, I saw a sword, the mortal sword to be precise, dead silent brothers, a lake and the cup.
I snapped the book shut and made eye contact with Jace, he was speechless at my strange eyes, green gold and black. They were unique I must admit.
"You got something to say Jace or are you going to leave?" Getting impatient
He stuttered "uh, wher- how did you get in here?"
"Through the front door, like everyone else" I lied, but it was completely believable.
"Where did you go?"
"Out" I answered simply.
I stood and walked over to him, with a simple sway of my hips, he visibly gulped and I had to hold in a smile at how much I affected him. I now stood mere centimetres away from him and waited. "You are in my way Jace" he shook his head and blinked, "of course Clarissa, just don't leave again"
"It's Clary, and I'm not planning on it for atleast a little while, now show me to the kitchen, I'm hungry"
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I am so terribly sorry it took so long to update! Like you don't even know how sorry I am. I'm having a case of writers block but I seem to be ok. I will should have an update ready soon I hope. Thankyou so much for all of the reads and everything, I love it when you comment and everything so please keep reading, don't give up on me just yet. I have been busy and I'm writing another story which is epic but it's not up yet also doing other stuff. I haven't read TMI in quite a while so if anything is wrong please tell me, I also keep getting confused between the actual book and wattpad books, idk if anyone else has this problem or if it's just me but anyway, thankyou all so much! I love y'all xx