Goin' Viral (Kleinsen)

Chapter 6

(Evan) 

It's been a week since everything happened between Jared and I. I haven't talked to him, although I've thought about him every second since we parted. I can't get the word out of my head. 

Love. 

I love Jared. 

No, of course not. What a ridiculous thing to say. Of course I don't love him. I don't even like him. He's annoying and makes to many jokes and.. and he always makes me feel better and is willing to put all jokes aside if I need him- no! 

Besides, there's Connor. Connor is sweet and misunderstood and great. I should be in love with Connor, not Jared. 

But it isn't Connor that I love, is it?  

Connor hadn't texted me since that night. He hadn't spoken to me at school. He had a right to be pissed, Jared basically cussed him out and kicked him out of my house. I did nothing to stop it. I should apologize to him. 

I walk to his locker to find the area empty. I walk outside and go behind the school where Connor normally hangs out. I see him standing there, smoking as usual. I frown and sigh before walking over to greet him. 

"H-hey, C-Connor," I said, my voice soft and weak. 

"Evan." He said coldly, not looking at me. 

"P-please, Connor c-can we ta-talk? I w-wanted to a-a-ap-" I was so nervous that I could barely speak. 

"Please, Evan, shut the fuck up. I can't stand listening to you stutter like that. It's the most annoying thing in the world. I was hoping you'd get over it, but it's just gotten worse." 

"C-onnor, I-" 

"What did I say? Leave me alone, Evan. Go take your stutter and the rest of your pathetic self away from me. I don't want to see you." He flicked his cigarette on the ground and stomped on it. Then he turned on his heel to leave. 

"What did I do?!" I yelled at him. He stopped and turned around. 

"You let that little faggot yell at me. I did nothing wrong, Evan. You just let him do whatever he wanted. I thought maybe you'd defend the person you- you-" He yelled and then sighed when he couldn't say the words. "It was so embarrassing, Evan. I thought maybe we could still- you know. Talk and stuff. Maybe this could turn into something. Then I realized there's no way you would leave Jared. No way you would pick me over him. If you couldn't stand up for me, why should I bother standing up for you?"

"Being awfully bold today, aren't we Connor?"