Goin' Viral (Kleinsen)

Chapter 22

(Evan) 

He's given me nothing. He hasn't blinked, he won't squeeze my hand, there's no reaction to my voice at all. It's as if I wasn't even there. I've barely left the hospital. My mother started forcing me to go to school after a week of staying with Jared. I felt so at fault for this. I should never have ended things. I didn't need to beat him to it, why would I think that? Just because you think someone is going to break up with you, doesn't mean you should try to beat them to it. A word of advice from my future book, "An Anxiety Driven Life: The Evan Hansen story". 

Now it was 3:00 pm and i was on my way back to the hospital. I wake up early every day to stop by for a few minutes, and then after school i came back and did my homework at his side. I still hadn't moved on, somehow. I couldn't stop thinking about Jared. I hadn't gone to Connor, I hadn't tried it with anyone else. It seemed the only person I wanted to be with was Jared. But maybe it was time to give up that hope. 

Our "anniversary" would have been tomorrow, if I hadn't have dumped him. I just wished he would wake up soon. I didn't want to spend our anniversary by myself. 

I walked into his hospital, nodding at the receptionist I'd seen almost every day for nearly a year now. I walked up to his room, knocking on the door as always before I entered. Then i opened the door. "Hey, Jared," I walked to sit down in the chair that was always next to his bed. "It's Evan, again. I guess you probably get tired of me stopping by so often. I wish I didn't have to, but I can't go a day without seeing you. Pathetic right?" I half smiled, not even really looking at him as I reached into my bag to pull out my notebook. 

"Yeah, Hansen, pretty pathetic, I'd say." I heard a raspy voice come from a few feet away from me.  I froze in my tracks. I slowly looked up to see Jared, smirking at me from his hospital bed. 

"J-j-j-jared?" I whispered. 

"That stutter will never get better will it?" 

"Jared!" I leaped up and wrapped my arms around him as tight as I could. "Oh god, you're awake! You're okay!" I laughed and cried a little. 

"Easy there, Ev. I'm in a hospital for a reason." He said through a couple chuckles. 

"I'm so sorry!" I pulled back away from him, backing up and fiddling with my hands. 

"That doesn't mean I don't want you near me. Come here, Evvy." He patted the spot next to him. I smiled and blushed, before quickly climbing in next to him. 

We cuddled and talked for hours. It turns out he woke up a few hours after I left. Nobody talked about the fact that I had broken up with him, that I had caused this, that we weren't a couple. We just enjoyed each others company. And now, I had a plan for tomorrow. 

~hiiiiii everyone! i hope you guys enjoyed my return chapter, the next one will probably be longer, and definitely exciting! i hope you all don't hate me too much for my being gone for a while. i hope you all enjoy the rest of my story~