Anything For You~Jonah Marais

T H I R T Y~F I V E

*flashback*

Lexi walks into her mom's hospital room. "Hi mommy" she forced a smile. It was hard to see her mom like this but she knew she had to keep it together and be strong for her. "Hi baby" her mother weakly smiled. "I need to talk to you" her mom sadly smiled. Lexi walked over and sat next to her mom. "You can tell me anything" Lexi smiled. Tears started falling from her mother's eyes.

"Mommy?" Lexi asked as she wiped her tears. "What's wrong?" Lexi asked. "Baby, I can't keep fighting....it's getting too hard" her mom cried. "I need to let go...." she cried. Lexi looked down and took a deep breath, then she looked back up to her mother with a smile. "Whenever you're ready" Lexi nodded as a tear slipped from her eye. She hugged her mother. "I love you" her mom whispered. "I love you too mommy" Lexi replied.

A few minutes later, Lexi was holding her mother's hand, it was silent as her mother slept. Then, all that was heard in the room was a long, loud ringing noise. Lexi knew what it was and she couldn't do anything but cry. "I love you mommy" she whispered. "I promise, I'll make a difference, I'll make you proud" she promised her. Lexi stood up and lifted the cover gently over her mother's face.

*flashback over*

A tear slipped from my eye. I quickly wiped it before anyone noticed. I went up to my room without saying another word. I walked in and looked around, did they really grab everything from my bedroom? All my song lyrics? I looked through my closet and found my stash of song lyric notebooks. I grabbed the one labeled "family" I wasn't an only child.....

Jonah and I may have grown up as siblings, but that doesn't mean I was an only child, I had a sister, she was 2 years younger then me, she killed herself. I was 17 turning 18 the next month, she had just turned 16. Jonah has no clue she's dead, I don't like talking about it, Jonah hasn't even asked about her yet, but maybe it's because he assumes that since I didn't mention her death that she's fine.

I wrote a bunch of songs but the 3 that stick out are "daddy's little girl" "I surrender" and "See you again" I held in my tears as I read the lyrics and looked at the pictures. "Gone but never forgotten. My handsome and beautiful fighters" I pulled out a small box, it had a DVD in it. I grabbed my computer and put it in. A video popped up and I pressed play.

The first clip was my mom and dad holding me in the hospital. "She looks like a little turd" my dad joked. My mom elbowed him in his side and smiled. "You're gonna be mommy's little princess and daddy's little fighter" he gently poked me in the stomach. I smiled. Then Jonah's mom walked in with Jonah who was born the day before. The next clip was the first time they took me home and my aunt and a few of their friends, including Jonah and his parents, threw them a welcome home party.

The next clip was me and Jonah's first birthday, my dad put cake on my nose and I rubbed my nose on him and made everyone laugh. But Jonah just face planted into his cake, which led to me face planting into my cake. The next clip was my first steps, Jonah had already started walking, well sort of, he always fell after 5 seconds. My dad was crying and recording as I walked over to my mom. "Come on babygirl you got this" my mom cheered me on. "I'm gonna be daddy's little fighter, yeah right, I just got his emotions" I thought and smiled.

The next clip was my sister's birth. I was 2, I was holding her. "Did it huwt?" I asked my mom. My mom nodded. I frowned. "Did I huwt?" I asked. My mom nodded again. "I sowy" I frowned. "Weah bequase of you big head" Jonah laughed. I stuck my tongue out at him. "But sees so coot" I smiled at Lelani, my sister. The next clip was Lelani's first birthday, I put a handful of cake on her face, she ate it off. I put some on Jonah's face too, he rubbed it on me. The next clip was Lelani taking her first steps and me throwing a pillow at her, knocking her over.