To the Chief Musician. Set to “Jahzerah Jahdiel.” A song and a prayer.
O my God, will I let go so that I may be found by You?
Will you surely mount me with wings as eagles?
I have fallen so low in complaint and unbelief
Be merciful to me. Shine on me Your truth!
You promised my righteousness is from You
And that You order the steps of a good man
I have fallen in unbelief and doubt
Fulfill Your promises. Help me to stand!
The wine of praise I have not taken on my lips
Nor anointed myself with the strength of Your joy
I have not eaten the grain of Your promises
Nor seeking after You; my heart to be employed
Selah
I have lost my first love
And I seek for Him now
Have mercy and answer the cries of Your servant
Sound forth Your trumpet of deliverance!
Make it blast aloud!
For You have called me
Like a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit
Like a youthful wife when I refused to be comforted
Indeed I have refused Your comfort O Lord
And now I repent and take delight in Your mercies
And Your great promises!
You are my God and You have declared to me,
“For a mere moment I have forsaken you
But with great mercies I will gather you
With a little wrath I hid My face
But with everlasting kindness I will have mercy on you
And My loving grace.”
I remember the days of old
I meditate on all Your works
I muse on the work of Your hands
I spread out my hands to You
My soul longs for You like a thirsty land!
Selah
I remember in times past
When my Lover was with me
I did not wish to open to Him
For I had already filled myself with His joys and blessings
And had forgotten His works and the thanksgiving of praise
I opened for my Beloved
But my Beloved had turned away and was gone
My heart leaped up when He spoke
I sought Him, but I could not find Him
I called Him, but He gave me no answer
The watchmen who went about the city found me
Rough men of my own Flesh, struck me and wounded me
The keepers of the walls took my veil away from me
I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem
You Bride of the son of the King
If you find my Beloved
That you tell Him I am lovesick
Selah
Lord, my heart is not haughty
Nor my eyes lofty
Neither do I concern myself with great matters
Nor with things too profound for me
Surely I have calmed and quieted my soul
Like a weaned child with his mother
Like a weaned child is my soul within me
O my soul, hope in the Lord
From this time forth and forever!
Out of the depths I have cried to You O Lord
When all in and around me was still
When all my strength had failed me
Surely Your hand is upon me
And You have watched me
As with the apple of Your eye, You have watched me
Though pride had made me calloused to Your love
Surely I have sought after You and You have answered
You have answered from Your word; and have made it clear
My steps are ordered by You
Though I fall, I am not utterly cast down
For You uphold me with Your hand
Lord, hear my voice!
Let Your ears be attentive to the voice of my supplications
If You Lord, should mark iniquities, O Lord, who could stand?
But there is forgiveness with You
That You may be feared
For as the heavens are high above the earth
So great is Your mercy toward those who fear You
As far as the east is from the west
So far have You removed my transgressions from me
As far as the heavens are higher than the earth
So are Your ways higher than my ways
And Your thoughts higher than my thoughts
I wait for You, O Lord. My soul waits
And in Your word I do hope
My soul waits for the Lord
More than those who watch for the morning
Yes, more than those who watch for the morning
You take pity on my weakness and frailty
And in it all, Your strength is perfected
You love me, my Beloved
I hope in You O Lord
For with You there is mercy
And with You, there is abundant redemption
You shall redeem me from all my iniquities
Selah
Oh, lift me up with wings as eagles
Lift up my face and let me not be ashamed
Let none who seek You be ashamed
Who trust in Your Name
Father, I walk and I run
Down this long, dark and weary road
With Your Word as my lamp
The darkness seems so great
And the light of Your promises, so small
Have mercy on me, Father
I trust in Your Name!
Your Name is: Faithful and True
As my Bridegroom, woo me to Yourself
Through me, through Your Bride
Woo the nations to Yourself and help me to reflect
The love of Christ which has been poured out on me
How can I hold it back?
Father, by Your Grace towards me
For the light of Your Word makes it clear
And Your Spirit, to Thy testimonies, appeal
I cast off the doubts and fears of my Flesh
And if I do not have the strength, I cry out for Your's
May Your grace and love on me be poured
For surely, my Father has never failed
And I shall repeatedly and again see
His goodness in the land of the living
And oh how the wicked haunts and chills my skin
When his cold, shadowy presence mocks my words
The truth I feebly speak from my mouth
For it has gone dry
He moans back in deep, dark mockery
“Where is your God? And what is 'the land of the living'?
You journey in the darkness
This is, the Land of the Dead.”
Lies shall not endure forever
But shall, rather, fade
In the light of Your Presence
For truth and righteousness surround You like a garment
And Your glory, a crown; Your grace, a veil
And Thy Word is a gift to me
A lamp to my feet
Lift me up on eagles wings
That I may soar high with You
Why does my soul desire to flee like a bird to it's mountain
When my God is with me?
O help me Father, for I do not always feel You
I know You are there and that You are carrying me
And that when I walk and move, You are guiding me
With an unseen hand and an outstretched arm
You reach down and keep me
Make me a blessing and may I be blessed
And deliver me from pride and my distress
Though I cannot see, You will guide me
You are my Light; Your Word is like the moon
Reflecting Your purpose and Your will
Selah
The Lord God is a sun and a shield
The Lord gives grace and glory!
No good thing does He withhold
From those who walk uprightly!
O how blessed I am, that I am His Son
Keep me from pride and rejecting my brothers
Cursing them by accepting secret seeds of jealousy
To be planted in my heart
Reveal them gracious Father, before they become
Saplings of hatred and destruction
That would destroy me and my brothers
That would destroy me and my sisters
Purify me by the fire of Your grace and love
And send help and Your revelation from above
You, Lord God my Father, dwell in me
I nor anything else
Can separate me from Your presence
Cause my heart once again to sing of Your joy and beauty
And give me eyes to see it in trusting and waiting in You
Surely, my eye has not seen
Nor has my ear heard
Nor has entered into my heart
The wonderful, awesome, powerful things
That You have prepared
For those who love You
How can I love You?
By trusting and waiting on You
And following faithfully after You
May these lips, for greater days, once again sing
Until then and forever
And mount me up on eagle's wings
